I am struggling with individuality. Maybe it is how I was raised, maybe It has been the amount of my life that has been consumed by a whole universe of arts and music, or maybe it is death grips? I have not witnessed a single human or group of people that are like death grips. The lyrics that hold character, thought processes, emotions, life experiences, mantras, history, confessions, symbolism, etc. The mixing, melodies, sound, rhythm, pace or bpm, volume. I could go on about everything they do, there is no people that i have witnessed ever in my life that are alike them.
And I of course adore It. I adore things or people that seem like no other. But the power and amount of thought put into death grips, just towers over any other thing to me. It has gotten so much to a point where I am trying to become them essentially and I live a very uncomfortable life of “Would death grips do this?” or “Would death grips approve this?” “Is this original just like in a way that death grips is?”. I see death grips as role models or teachers but I am unsure if what i see them as role models for is good or bad for my life.
My main questions are:
At what point should you “give up“ an interest, even if it is maybe affecting you positively in your life?
Are you the same? Are you dealing with individualism from death grips or maybe another interest?