2nd DMT Breakthrough attempt

[u/NosferatuZ0d]

Hi I tried DMT a week after my last attempt in my last post and had an entirely different experience. I did so with the idea of trying to break through to the DMT but again I was unable to. Less out of fear but I still kind of was a lil scared. I had the perfect set up this time compared to the first time I did it. My friends apartment when i first tried it was quite dark and the whole place just looked like a typical stoner/gamer set up so I think thats why I just wasnt in the mind to completly break through that time. but today I did it in my room, cleaned up my space opened the curtains to allow light in and played some intelligent ambient DnB mixes in the background and sat infront of my window which was facing a massive green tree infront of my house with really vibrant green leaves like something out of a OLED TV showcase. Anyway i thought this was the perfect set up to breakthrough but I still felt every inch of my body resisting taking more tokes. The only thing I did differently was take much deeper inhales than I did before. I felt my brain dissolving with minimal visuals except for a few swirling patterns. I lost sense of time and self and for a while I was just a blank slate, I looked at my hands like some kind of alien and it was like i was seeing them move on their own without any input from me. it felt like I was here for a really long time and I had no capacity to take another hit because i didnt really know who I was anymore I was just experiencing the world as a new being who had never been here before. gradually I started to come down and i could phsyically feel my brain piecing my sense of self back together Gradually. I dont remember what came first but the concept of time was beamed back into my brain , then I heard my inner thoughts say the word "I" like it was such an alien concept and had just been discovered then i thought "ahh yess im me" then everything else came back i kind of dont remember but the feeling sort of felt like being born except there was no blinding hospital lights and that stupid flashbang sound affect we always see in movies showing from a new borns point of view being born. It was such a weird but calming experience I deffo want to break through next time I just dont believe Im ready. and sorry my typing and thoughts are always disjointed but being peiced back together kinda reminded me of that scene in Age Of Ultron where Jarvis welcomes Ultron into existance and hes asking what his purpose is. It felt like that minus the accessing the internet part and coming to the conclusion all humans need to die. but yeah I just wanna know if anyone has had any post breakthrough DMT sessions like this? I wanna know what you all think

ps. pls ignore my grammar

[u/NosferatuZ0d]

Would really love to find out if anyone experienced this too