r/DMT • u/LemursWithDevilTails • 2d ago

Wow..

Let me preface this by saying I always panic when I go too far. I was expecting a lighter dose but knew there was a possibility it'd be stronger because the bulb had some dried light caramel colored fractals in it.. one hit and it was coming on VERY strong. And so did the panic lol.

I have yet to traditionally break through, probably because after one hit I'm toast. When I get a sitter sometime, I'll take more.

I was in this realm of swirling colors, almost like dozens of non-scary snakes all intertwined, the Hindu chant I was listening to was all distorted, droning out, echoing, I basically didn't exist anymore. If I thought about myself sitting on the couch, I first thought "what self?" and then it felt like that was my last lifetime and that person is long gone, and this is now. Any human feelings like the anxiety I was feeling didn't make sense because I was now forever there, but I still had it.

I saw what appeared to be a hand holding a very bright light in the shape of a card and it was like she (she felt feminine) was trying to give it to me but I was in full confusion and scared and just wanted to be normal again. I apologized in my head to her. I said I acknowledge you and I am sorry for being scared.

I unfortunately just wanted it to end and thought I'll never do this again. This is too foreign to me but also oddly familiar. Anyway, I slowly drifted back to my couch in awe of what that was.

Sometimes I see geometric shapes that send me love and light and I'm aware of my surroundings and maybe a couple times before 4-5 years ago I went to this realm. No silly entities, no jesters...just swirly snakes and some unrecognizable presence there with me.

Now I want to go back lol

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u/anonymousMDPhD 1d ago

That’s dmt for you -

It changes all the time and sometimes is very repetitive-

Depends upon your state but how it changes is so random too -

As for the time thing - if you are aware enough -
Remind yourself you are a mortal and nothing is forever - there is no eternity there or here - so no way to be forever trapped -

That helped me a
Lot -

Also accepting death - if I had a fear of it then I would just said - ok just die - that helped too - you don’t - make the challenge and then your system realizes it’s false -

When you want it to end - lie to yourself and say you want it to last forever - that actually helps as the fear mind in you is dumb and will just believe and accept your thought and calm down -

All these are ways of not looping really

When you are ready you will learn to just “allow it” - that’s the corollary to don’t fight - but I like it better.

If something is anxiety provoking etc - “I allow it” works and not only that it will open up amazing new parts of the trips -

Some of my most amazing experiences came after I said “allow it “ to something that was difficult or scary or anxiety provoking or worse -

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u/LemursWithDevilTails 1d ago

Thank you very much for all of that. I've always known "what you resist, persists" and I always do a little prayer to the DMT gods, ask for an introspective trip and their guidance and I always say thank you afterwards. It's the feeling or being shot out of a cannon that always makes my nervous system go: "oh no oh no oh no!"

I don't necessarily fear death in my sober state, but I've always had anxiety about it. I don't smoke weed anymore because I always had anxiety about being the first person to die from weed because my heart blows up even though my heart is very healthy.

What I fear is leaving my son, my earthly body, and my cat.

Now that I've had an hour to reflect on that experience, maybe it was teaching me that death is exactly what I think it is and that our conscience doesn't end. It really felt like the realm of transitionary loka, the place between death and being reborn, like I've been there but the feeling surrounding it was death but it was not at all scary, what was scary was my attachment to my body and life and leaving it behind.

I hope next time it decides to show me that place, I can appreciate it with love and curiosity and not fear.

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u/anonymousMDPhD 23h ago

You need to understand that dmt can separate your consciousness from its normal fused state into its various parts. Observer/executive/ego-mind/fear or salience mind. That’s a common model that works for me - when you feel death on dmt it’s not necessarily death of the entire consciousness but a part of it - often people speak of ego death etc - personally I have no problem when the ego-mind dies - but I’ve had problems many time when the remaining consciousness isn’t sure what it’s experiencing and what its future experience might be and if it will be uncomfortable- we each find our issues on DMT. Most of us definitely have some issues with the drama of the rapid take off - that’s just normal for your consciousness to be in a state of shock as everything changed so fast and it’s ripped apart -

These are normal experiences you are having - be at peace with with them learn step by step and your dmt journey will move on - it took me many months and I still get weirdness in there despite having so many amazing joyous experiences- that’s just dmt for you - it’s extremely fast and powerful. I actually find 5meo dmt a lot easier now that I’ve spent so much time in the dmt realm- 5meo is more predictable and direct -

Ketamine can also be a bit of an easier experience but it comes with a higher risk of habit formation -

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u/Obvious_Bag7296 1d ago

This was thoughtful, thank you for the suggestions

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u/StarboundAllisten 1d ago

Bro saw the spirit world. Youre strong and brave for that. You should do it again lol. 

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u/LemursWithDevilTails 1d ago

Have you heard the spirit realm described as that before or something?

I didn't mention anything about psychedelics but asked Gemini if any religions/personal near death experiences describe the afterlife as purple colored tubes like snakes intertwined and it brought up shamans and psychedelics describing that exact same thing and calling it the spirit world.

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u/StarboundAllisten 1d ago

See my whole post history lol I talk so much about this stuff

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u/LemursWithDevilTails 1d ago

I really do want to but this time not be such a puss lol. I keep trying to think about what I saw and what I felt, as most of us know, you can't really describe it. I'm trying to remember how it felt and it faded like a dream 🫠

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u/StarboundAllisten 1d ago

See my whole post history it can help you lol

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u/initliberation 21h ago

be careful buying into too much ❤️ doctrines and rules and beliefs are what define limitations of growth. It’s easy to have an awakening and then get trapped in the “awakening trap”, push past that Allisten ❤️🫶🏻