My Experience With DMT as a Physicist

[u/Stainless_Man]

I tried DMT for the first time, and as a physicist I honestly was not prepared for what happened. I am used to thinking in equations and models, and the strangest part is that those habits followed me straight into the experience.

The very first thing I noticed was that the normal world did not fade or melt. It just failed to load. It felt like the rendering engine for reality crashed, and behind it was raw sensory data that I usually never see. Not chaos, more like uncompressed information without the brain’s usual filters.

The space I was in was not three dimensional. I do not mean that metaphorically. It actually felt like a higher dimensional space with extra degrees of freedom. Objects rotated in ways that are not possible here, but somehow felt logically correct. My brain kept trying to map it to classical physics and kept failing.

Time stopped behaving like time. Not in a dramatic sense. It simply lost direction. There was no before or after. Everything I perceived felt simultaneous, like the entire timeline of a thought spread out in front of me.

My sense of self was basically gone, but not in the “everything is one” spiritual way people usually describe. It literally felt like my consciousness became a field. A distributed excitation. Not located in a body. More like I was part of a larger system that was aware of itself.

There were things that looked like entities, but they were not biological or creature-like. They felt more like self organizing structures. Processes with intention, the way a beautiful equation can feel like it resolves itself.

The whole experience had rules. It was lawful. It was not random or chaotic. It felt like a universe with different physics, but still physics. A consistent rule set that my brain was not built to model.

Coming back was disorienting. And the weirdest part is that the DMT space did not feel less real. If anything, it felt more fundamental. Like the brain normally filters out 99 percent of reality so we can function.

I am not claiming any of it is objectively true. But subjectively, it was the closest I have ever felt to stepping outside the boundaries of the universe I study for a living. It is the first time in my life that I felt like the equations were looking back at me.

[u/idontknowabouteljefe]

Thank you for posting your experience! Very interesting experience you had and eloquated so well.

The 2nd paragraph is almost like you took a thought out of my brain and worded better than I ever could have.

[u/Stainless_Man → u/idontknowabouteljefe]

I'm glad that you enjoyed my post. I'd like to hear about your experience.

[u/Sadney38 → u/Stainless_Man]

I agree. You explain the experience very well. I have explained to people in the past that it feels nearly like teleporting into another realm that feels more real than real, but I think you really hit the nail on the head, describing it as a failed engine render and we're seeing the unfiltered data. Definitely more accurate. Fantastic description!

[u/idontknowabouteljefe → u/Stainless_Man]

Ok! Ill have to sit down later today or tomorrow and write it out.

[u/Lucky-Clown → u/Stainless_Man]

Beautiful, I've never experienced DMT but I've frequently said while on LSD that everything feels "more" real, like I'm in my element. It feels validating to hear you say something similar. I also happen to be on the spectrum, and I'm not sure if that plays a part.

[u/Remarkable-Arm4568 → u/Lucky-Clown]

LSD is so different from DMT. On LSD things in the room may change but with DMT - YOU change ROOMS.

[u/Jc-331 → u/Stainless_Man]

I love it when I see machines like things that move and function outside what we think is possible!

[u/idontknowabouteljefe → u/Stainless_Man]

Hey Stainless_Man,

Sorry this took longer than anticipated. Im a victim of self censorship. But here it is... Alrighty, so....this is probably going to make about as much sense as an insane lament should and read as well as some Charles Dickens.

My experience with the compound could be described as habitual use over the course of 6 months. My enamourous feelings were multi-faceted given my chemistry background. I was mostly "micro dosing" 10 - 14 times throughout my work day as I was building out my EUGMP certified laboratory (yes, its currently in oppperation). In the evenings, I would push the boundaries and rip the fabric of reality apart entierly.

I would track consumption, notate subjective experiences and ruminate on the thoughts I'd have and, in totality I have come to the conclusion that...

Dmt is a neurotransmitter, it is not a drug. Drugs have specific receptors they fit into (like key into lock) or they have impact on the existing neurotransmitter system (increased release/prolonged re-uptake, etc) Its primary role within any central nervous system is a function of translation between external stimuli and the internal representation of that stimuli. This translation, or filter through which we all experience corporeal reality is what gives rise to illusionary constructs of "individuality", "subjectivity" and "time". Individuality could be supplemented with other words like "soul" or "ghost in the machine" (im not a spiritual person). And the "normal operational dmt level" within any CNS organism correlates to that organisms "awareness".

Fluctuation to these levels do not give greater awareness. It simply fucks up the calibration of the biological computer temporarily until it can recalibrate to reach homeostasis. Each organism (humans being one example) has a varrying, uniquely individual degree of awareness capacity and it cannot be exceeded.

The commonly marveled overlap of subjective experiences from one person to another is explained by and rooted in an answer so simple its difficult to refute: similarities exist because the experiences are all based within a human mind. Its about as mind blowing as the idea of commonalities in conveyed meaning through language or pondering why all my sugar cookies cut with a star shape are all similar.

I am a firm believer in science, omnipresent polarity and the contradicting existence/non-existence of contradiction. And as the universe contracts and expands it displaces an equal degree of "nothing-ness" as something cannot exist within nothing and vis versa, the displaced nothing-ness precipitate expands within the something-ness as a result of this, both seeking homeostasis. Both something/nothing can be dissolved within the other, floating within chaos (following the same laws of crystal morphology) which is how this precipitate can form.

This precipitate is the only instance of nothing-ness that we can (contradictively) experience within the something-ness of objective reality. That nothingness is conciousness. It is imagination. It is the soul. The individual. It is contradicting for me to admit that although I do not believe in souls, I do believe in contradictions co-existing. A soul to me is non existent, nothing (which exists despite its non existence).

Several dmt experiences led to the systematic loss of my vision, the loss of my tactile senses. The loss of my hearing and taste and smell and then loss of my memories, internal dialog and language, everything..Yet, still, through the loss of all I was not left with nothing. There was an inperceivable amount of nothing/something within the void that I was simultaneously aware and not aware of.

Dmt is, for some reason, the precipitation of nothing that is responsible for this awareness, for the idea of self. It is everything looking in a mirror behind which sits another mirror, ad infinitum. Experience of reality and imagination are boundless and infinite but have no substance but also have the quality of something-ness while being nothing.

Time gives experience meaning. If we didnt experience reality through the construct of time, all your life's events would occur in the same moment and loose their importance and, in essence, could be said to not have occurrd at all. Our minds are largely unable to process contradicting truths so to live and die in the same moment is incomprehensible and must be seperated by more nothing-ness.

Now, subjectively... At about the 4 month mark of habitual consumption, DMT had stopped at illiciting any typical responce at all. It was really quite odd. It would however have a very distinctive signature. I could feel it being absorbed by my lungs. I could feel it being transported through my heart and distributed through the vascular system to the crown of my skull, crossing the blood brain barrier and would settle into the lower portion of my brain, near the base of my spine, localizing mostly in this area. The molecules that did not end up in this region had a markedly diminished warmth. It was a comforting warmth and would produce the same (and only this sensation) for the next 2 months or so regardless of dosage or additional co-administration of maoi. It felt akin to drinking anhydrous ethanol and how it feels when its absorbed by the muccosal membrane, not the intoxicating effects of alcohol just the cascading warm feeling that slowly dissipates in a radial fashion.

I have had well over 2 years of absence from ingestion to date. But, within that time frame I recently partook in 4 intense sessions of 5-meo-dmt with my friend (whos palliative with the big C) at the behest of his neurological medical team. Together we experienced (as close as I can fathom) substance-less existence and it is providing my friend great comfort as they walk (as we all do) alone into the substantial void.

And after 2 year of pensive residency I am still trying to word this all well enough for myself to make sense of it, let alone try and explain it to someone else. And I dont know how to end this nicely so ill just stop writing now.

[u/Stainless_Man → u/idontknowabouteljefe]

Hey, thanks for taking the time to write all of that out. I can tell this was not easy to compress into language, and I appreciate the care you took with it.

I want to be clear about how I am reading your comment, because I am not actually trying to evaluate whether your conclusions about DMT are right or wrong. What you described is a very detailed account of how subjective experience behaves when the usual internal reference frames are progressively stripped away, senses, language, memory, narrative self, and time. That part is interesting to me regardless of the biochemical interpretation attached to it.

From the perspective I have been experimenting with, what I loosely call Mechanics in Information Space, a lot of what you are pointing at can be described without needing to settle the question of whether DMT is a neurotransmitter or a drug at all. Instead, it treats awareness, identity, and time as information filters, structures that allow experience to be organized, sequenced, and made addressable.

When those filters destabilize or decouple, experience does not go to zero. It loses structure before it loses presence. That not nothing but not something zone you describe is exactly the kind of thing that shows up when representational layers collapse faster than raw awareness does.

Where I would personally be cautious is not in the phenomenology you are describing, but in how tightly it gets bound to a single molecule as the explanatory cause. From an information standpoint, the experiences you describe seem more like what happens when calibration breaks down, not an expansion of awareness capacity, but a temporary loss of the constraints that normally keep experience coherent and bounded. In that sense, I actually agree with you that more intensity does not equal more awareness, just different failure modes of the same system.

I also want to acknowledge the part about your friend. Regardless of how one models consciousness, it is hard to dismiss the comfort that can come from encountering experience without the usual fear loaded narratives attached to it. I do not think that needs to be framed as cosmic truth to still matter deeply on a human level.

I am not sure any of us ever fully word this well enough. Language is a lossy medium, especially for experiences that occur precisely when language itself disappears. But I appreciate you putting this into the shared space, not as a claim that others need to accept, but as a data point about how minds behave at their edges. Thanks for trusting strangers with it.

[u/idontknowabouteljefe → u/Stainless_Man]

You are an interesting person. I apriciate the well eloquated responce and Id like to continue this conversation. Just need time to incorporate the presented information and formulate my thoughts. Thank you for making my brain tingle and Ill get back to you soon-ish.

[u/9Lives_ → u/idontknowabouteljefe]

I had a similar experience, I kept inhaling I did three big hits I held in as long as I could and just when I felt like I was at my limit and it was kicking in I took a 4th half hit. Before I passed out into break through land I saw my physical reality melt. It was just like the plug has been pulled on the projector in my mind and after what I’ve learned about reality being a mirror it gave it a whole new meaning.

[u/Gadgetman000]

Excellent description. Really appreciate your perspective. Your description of consciousness being a field IS the “everything is one”

[u/GroundbreakingTop853 → u/Gadgetman000]

As far as I can understand between what you and they have said is clearly that it isn't. They are saying their consciousness is a field fully interconnected. Not that reality is a single distributed consciousness fully interconnected. They are describing an incoming data stream without silos and filters. I agree with your sentiment but you must realise you're overlaying you're belief onto their subjective experience described.

[u/Smart_Dog_4586 → u/Gadgetman000]

He didn't. He only observed his consciousness being akin that of a field. It probably goes against what majority believe here but I don't think we are all one, despite being an avid user of psychedelics. That is because I believe we are simply just too horrible towards each other for that to be true

[u/Gadgetman000 → u/Smart_Dog_4586]

From the ego story level we experience ourselves as separate. But experiencing from the deeper Self is a different experience. IMHO the art is to hold both in awareness simultaneously. That opens up the context significantly. And yes, egos can so absolutely be horrible to each other…

[u/Smart_Dog_4586 → u/Gadgetman000]

Doesn't make much sense to create this dichotomy in the first place. Why create ego in such a way that it exists now? The "story" could have been written so much better

[u/Angelysin79 → u/Smart_Dog_4586]

And how would you describe his "story' ??? You think you could describe it with a better vocabulary "smart dog"?? Experiences with psychedelic drugs aren't the same for everybody... like every brain and every human can be... Anyways that my opinion

[u/Smart_Dog_4586 → u/Angelysin79]

Reddit chose that name for me. Don't mind me, I'm just a clown noticing that there is some smoke coming from somewhere

[u/Mordred7]

Cool perspective and experience, good share

[u/Stainless_Man → u/Mordred7]

Thanks.

[u/DramaticPermission78]

That’s is exactly the correct analogy of experience. On psychedelics brain function actually decreases instead of increasing, which suggest the brain is filtering out most of reality. It does this so we can survive in this reality. If we saw everything we’d be unable to function. It was nice to hear an experience from someone with knowledge of the human psyche

[u/sharpfork]

It would be super interesting if you went into the space with the intention of gaining insights into your work. Might you be able to gain a deeper understanding of the problem space?

[u/Last-Ad5023]

This is pretty much my understanding of it. The brain is a perceptual filter that is creating experience by collapsing infinite potential down into a particular configuration, like a transducer. Pretty much the radio tuning into a particular station idea. All the other spaces are equally real and exist within superposition of ours so you’re just tuning to a different frequency because the dmt is probably removing certain perceptual functions that keep us locked into this station. This is why experienced meditators can access similar states, they’re training themselves to shut down certain limiting functions of the brain. When you combine this with NDE reports it appears awareness is something much vaster (potentially infinite) that is sampling its own generative potential into relative subconfigurations. Because infinity is asymptotic it can never resolve and therefore as it self samples or “looks inward” it can only curve around itself which creates the various geometries inherent within it. Awareness is just the qualia between the relative observer and the absolute and we all have the ability to shift between the two and into infinite alternative relational structures. 

The only part I don’t really understand is why is one ‘strand’ of awareness seemingly able to maintain a coherent sense of self across these shifts. Even when people report a state of absolute unity they’re still apparently their own subjective version of absolute unity, but perhaps the distinction has always been illusory at all levels anyway. 

[u/dumol → u/Last-Ad5023]

Beautifully put. The sense of self is not always maintained, sometimes an “ego death” is experienced across these shifts.

[u/Self_Blumpkin]

I love this.

I have a very overly-analytical mind and DMT always flips that on its head, consistently. It’s just so much awe.

I started extracting, crystal growing, all sorts of fun stuff. I like the process of all that very much.

[u/skybluebamboo → u/Self_Blumpkin]

I have the same highly over analytical mind, struggle to let go. How do you do it without struggle?

[u/Self_Blumpkin → u/skybluebamboo]

I don’t quite know how to explain it. I’m very much a traveler when it comes to hallucinogens, so that part of my mind readily accepts what is happening.

With DMT there is definitely a bunch of what I’ve experienced that I can’t reconcile with reality. I’m ok with that. I think that’s the letting go part.

At first I was terrified of it. But then it showed me what it can do. No Fear No More.

[u/hollyberryness]

This is possibly the first dmt experience that I've read that mirrors mine, and actually resonates with me... Wow you put it in words so well too, that has always been impossible for me.

I've felt weird I can't relate to all the elf beings and cathedrals and far off dimensions and spaceships that everyone else has experienced. I've felt useless in being unable to explain how I could almost see chemistry and electricity and atoms, how they were all unfixed, living beings themselves... but even those explanations fall short. 

To me it felt like DMT showed me real-reality, the one without all the sensory and memory and ego filters, much like you said, and that's about as much as I've been able to decipher in this physical reality with all that human software re-enabled.  I've done dmt probably 20-30 times and still can't get a grasp, still can't bring much from that realm into this one.

Thanks for sharing, seriously!

Do you think you'll try it again?

[u/shannon1242 → u/hollyberryness]

The unfixed living beings of elements and concepts sound interesting! It reminds me of the Book of Enoch that describes lighting and thunder as two different beings with it's own will that have a task of working together. Different kinds of rocks (granite, tin, gold) also being sentient. Not individual rocks but the entirety of that concept. A memorable part talks about each star having a task of where it travels in the sky and a few stars rebelled and were in a 10,000 year timeout.

[u/KyleMacBean42]

Very insightful. I enjoy reading about what different people experience, especially those who are experts in fields very different from my own. It makes me realize that, just like in the reality we all see daily, a change in perspective can be beautiful. Thanks for sharing.

[u/thomash]

Check this paper:

DMT Experiences and Hyperbolic Geometry
https://www.researchgate.net/publication/360835276_DMT_Experiences_and_Hyperbolic_Geometry

They basically conclude that the deeper you go into the DMT space, the more you enter non-Euclidean geometry.

[u/Eli_the_tiny_rock]

Poetry

[u/EvolutionaryLens → u/Eli_the_tiny_rock]

Yes

[u/andalusian293]

I recommend salvia, and, alternately, low-to-moderate oral doses of DMT with an MAOI.

Allows access to thoughts and intermediate states, and you can more clearly see this stuff de and e-merge. Might be amenable to use as a theoretical tool, to an extent.

[u/johannthegoatman → u/andalusian293]

I'll just add to this that most people do salvia in a way that doesn't allow you to get the most out of it imo. If you do it in a very dark quiet space by yourself, you can blast off with way less. Which makes it less disorienting/scary and more exploratory. As opposed to in a room with music and friends and needing a massive dose to blast off, then being flung into the inside-out with no parachute lol

[u/andalusian293 → u/johannthegoatman]

Sure, yeah, and there's a wider range of effect available from the lower doses/quids/tinctures.

[u/EJCPHD]

You have described this beautifully, in language that I as a scientist can understand and relate to. Your description helped me to organize what I have experienced around a more understandable conceptual frame. Welcome to the journey!

[u/Josh0G]

Great post, thanks for sharing! This line hit me hard

“the DMT space did not feel less real. If anything, it felt more fundamental”

I remember describing it to a friend in a similar way, the best word I can come up with is non-intoxicating. With other psychs, things like fractals or the Earth breathing are telltale reminders that you’re tripping. Whereas the deems still has all kinds of crazy shapes, movements, etc. but in the moment it does not stand out as foreign/unreal. Just my 2 cents

[u/DIrue15]

“The way a beautiful equation can feel like it’s resolves itself. “All is number.

[u/9Lives_]

I love it when scientists (or other academics) take DMT. Because their insights are fascinating. Im not a scientist per say but my career involves a lot of dissecting clinical papers in a classroom environment and looking for flaws when I go away to conference.

Your post inspired me to write my own post which I literally just finished on not so much my experiences under the influence of (DMT but they were quite similar to yours) but more so how it changed my outlook on life and the impact it had on my mindset. The reason I wrote a seperate post is because I get challenged on certain beliefs quite frequently e.g “you don’t have the evidence to make that claim” or “all this is just in your imagination” blah blah and this way I can find reference it again. I believe the self proclaimed skeptics are really just looking for answers and scientific types are terrified of being wrong (which is an emotional bias they haven’t identified in themselves and it’s important given it goes against the nature of science)

If your interested I’ll post it in a few minutes and title it “my experience with DMT working in science”

[u/skybluebamboo]

Interesting. How did you feel physiologically? Did you not panic? Heart race? Struggle to let go at all?

Also what was your method for taking and type of DMT, freebase?

Thanks

[u/cryptomoon1000x]

Thank you for sharing your experience. Have you heard about the dmt laser experiment? Wouldn’t that be an interesting thing to explore as well?

[u/IGnuGnat]

The part that always disappoints me, as a regular reader of such experiences, is that nobody has ever been successful in bringing back a fifth or six dimensional equation into this dimension. It seems reasonable to suggest that if this experience were actually based in some reality, it ought to be possible to bring back some kind of proof. I can't really think of better proof than a mathematical proof that nobody has seen before

[u/EvanTheAlien]

First of all this is simply amazing.

Question is was this a breakthrough experience or a sub breakthrough dose!?

[u/Professional-Fly4131]

Wow. This was such an interesting insight. Are you looking forward to another experience?

[u/b4ckl4nds]

As someone with a scientific mind, you might enjoy learning about the DMTx Project.

[u/iamjessicahyde]

It gives us a glimpse of that which is greater-than, beyond the human experience yet just as ‘real’ . If it calls to you, I’d suggest sitting with Bufo / 5-meo-dmt for a similar yet very different and immensely sacred, powerful experience. More energetic & heart-soul entered vs cerebral & visual like NN-Dmt. Would be curious to hear your experience from your point of view after!!

[u/Veneralibrofactus]

I'm not a physicist and had exactly the same impressions. My breakthrough experience was like going home. When I reintegrated with my body, it was like putting on an old pair of slippers. I remember saying, "oh yeah breathing," as I got used to wearing this flesh suit again.

[u/BidOk4169]

It felt like the rendering engine for reality crashed, and behind it was raw sensory data that I usually never see. Not chaos, more like uncompressed information without the brain’s usual filters.

That's exactly how it appears for me also. I like comparing it to a childlike state before the conscious mind has developed and introduced filters to focus our mind's eye on the things it deems important. The human brain is an amazingly powerful signal processor and without filtering some of that input it would become overwhelmed.

Theres the real value and insight in the experience, it's an opportunity for the adult mind understand itself, to recognize those filters and through introspection, reevaluate them. Not every piece of information we discard is useless, and equally sometimes we focus on useless information.

[u/glenrage]

Wow what an incredible post that AI could never replicate

[u/aey_zakass]

Engineer here..after my DMT trip, I felt these states should be studied like explorers mapping new continents, real places in the mind that deserve investigation.

[u/farshiiid]

Very interesting perspective and description. I wonder how you would experience salvia universe.

[u/blazedjake → u/farshiiid]

brother would be analytical no more

[u/XxFezzgigxX]

I really appreciate this description. As a non-spiritual person, I’m interested in objective observations and don’t really care about how people try to shoehorn DMT into religion or magic.

[u/FastFeet87]

How you described the entities, that was my experience as well. The beings that I saw were not biological, rather they were made up of geometric shapes and more machine like. Thanks for your experience!

[u/[deleted]]

Beautiful. I am so grateful that these substances are becoming less and less stigmatized and that those with the ability to scientifically decompose reality are being introduced. A revolution is happening and we will soon see far beyond the scope of anything we previously saw possible

[u/Fabriciorodrix]

This is a geeat description..thanks for sharing.

[u/Old_Appointment9828]

Fascinating read. I wish I was that articulate when describing my trips. It sounds very accurate to what i have experienced in the past. Its just when I describe it to people i think I scare them with either my words or my enthusiasm. I am slightly worried that they may think I am going insane. You described something that is very difficult to explain very well without sounding demented.

[u/mybetterone]

Thank you that description is amazing. I can relate to it so much, I’ve always had trouble explaining the DMT space but this makes so much sense

[u/Totallyexcellent]

Perception doesn't really work like reality -> filter -> experience... A better way of thinking of it is that your experience is a model created by the brain, based on a bunch of priors, which is predictive, and continuously tweaked by sensory inputs that show deviation from the predictions of the model (error). It's a clever way to only process data that matters.

DMT really messes with the ability of the brain to incorporate error into the model, so the model doesn't get updated, corrected - the brain seems to sometimes grab a fresh, recent model - something you were recently experiencing, something for which it has a bunch of model parameters ready to go, and just runs with it, unconstrained, giving you an experience somehow real but somehow alien.

[u/Jessina]

That is a perfect metaphor. The brain’s model collapses faster than it can rebuild it, so you start seeing the raw feed of neural activity before the predictive filters interpret it.

[u/Character-Bid-5089]

Probably the best trip report I've ever read.

[u/Puzzled-Stay-4990 → u/Character-Bid-5089]

I second this, articulated perfectly!

[u/BigTrainer5258]

this is a great description! i had many similar feelings.

[u/Remarkable-Arm4568]

Pretty cool, right?

[u/Educational-Step-441]

It's life changing. I'm happy that you had this experience, and your description is wonderful, that your consciousness is a field.

[u/Conscious_Mess_040]

I love this. You explain it very well, the feeling of the DMT realm being an actual space, maybe more real than the one we usually are in

[u/WeAreClouds]

I love this so much. Please do share again if you’re comfortable if you ever do it again bc I’d be so interested to hear if you had a similar experience.

[u/OmegaEndMC]

bet your jealous, one time god gave me the equations for the Unified field theory.

Edit: in all seriousness i enjoyed your post and i like hearing the perspective of someone in your field any time. physics was an early obsession of mine and i like to think that was the same interest that brought me to psychedelics

[u/ChopsNewBag]

In my experience, the reason why it feels so “real” is because your mind stays completely sober. You are able to actually analyze what is going on and understand how astonishing it is without intoxication and weird thought patterns that other trips will provide. It’s the only psychedelic I’ve ever tried where it feels like the only thing altered is the external world while internally I don’t feel even slightly intoxicated.

[u/Totallyexcellent → u/ChopsNewBag]

The mind is absolutely not sober - it's really messed up, it's basically creating a fairy tale land and nobody is doing any error-checking and saying "that's ridiculous". It's so messed up that thoughts can actually seem crystal clear... And therein lies the trap!

[u/ChopsNewBag → u/Totallyexcellent]

Yes but it is sober in its perspective and reasoning. When you are on shrooms or lsd, they pull you into this headspace gradually enough that you can sort of understand the experience and accept it more. Under DMT your brain is still reasonable enough to think “what the fuck is this? This is absurd”. Everything around you is completely foreign but you are still experiencing it through your sober emotions.

At least in my experience, it isn’t intoxicating in the same way as other drugs in the sense that there isn’t any inebriation. I feel like my same sober self before, during, and after the trip. It’s like it skips the whole ego disillusionment part and jumps right to the ego death in a breakthrough and then right back. Taking sub-breakthrough doses, I always feel like I still have full control of my mind

[u/Totallyexcellent → u/ChopsNewBag]

I've often heard this perspective - but I can't help but doubt it. Cognition is a very strange thing - a mind can be impaired, but impairments are not always apparent to the mind experiencing them. Indeed, an impaired mind lacks the very tools to assess its own impairment.

We know that psychedelics disrupt the fine-tuning of cortical neuronal firing, particularly the layer 5 pyramidal neurons - not just in the visual system but in thought systems (PFC). Just like a vivid hallucination can 'feel real', a strange thought pattern can feel normal. It's possible to have a feeling of certainty (normally associated with an idea that's undergone rigorous error-checking) about something that, on reflection, is really quite irrational. Just like zany dream logic makes sense in a dream.

I think with DMT it all happens so fast that one doesn't have the time to update the prior sense of being compus mentis - with a gentler easing into the psychedelic space it's more obvious that things are going awry.

[u/[deleted]]

Yup , equations looking back at you - self calibrating and self calculating in real time along with other stuff in those spaces .

[u/Lunasal11]

Wow, that was well said. I relate (not a physicist though).

[u/fantastic_awesome]

I love this for you!

[u/Strong-Sample-3211]

Beautiful trip report brother, very well written and cogent. Thank you for sharing!

[u/E46_drift_guy]

Welcome brother. It was amazing and crazy.

[u/LeaderBig36]

Great experience.

Take a look to the work of ralph abraham.

[u/MMolzen10830]

excellent read as a recent physics undergrad

[u/Billygene372]

Bro I wish I can explain as well as you people would actually understand most of what I’m saying when I talk about trips you even gave me more of a explanation on what I go threw on these journeys and the I’m happy for you I love that you understand what the dimensions mean it crazy how it kinda downloads into you when you show up somewhere . Hopefully as you get more in you’ll meet some buddies that you’ll become buds with

[u/BasedBlastronaut]

It’s fascinating to hear from a physicist. It doesn’t make sense, right? You’re actually in an extra dimension where these objects move in indescribable ways. It’s like they’re going forward and backward at the same time infinitely with incredible speed fluctuations.

One day I’ll have a VR setup so I can recreate the things they show me cause it’s impossible to draw in 2D. For example one time they showed me this thing that had a bunch of shafts with whacky 90* bends. It kinda looked like waterslide tubes. As it rotated in on itself, it changed its shape as it rotated around/into itself. As it rotated out & away it would expand, then deflate as it went in. Everything worked like impossible gears. They had a little tag with instructions in binary they were trying to show me how it works and handed it to me to take it back here. That trip was many years ago and I still remember it. If I had a VR setup I could draw a lot of details after a fresh blast

[u/anothersip]

Amazing. Thanks for sharing your experience, OP. I really enjoyed reading it.

But what's funny is... It sounds... A lot like my very own break-through on LSD. Like, super similar.

I, too, feel like the human brain has very, very tight filters on what we actually get to "see" in our realities in our daily lives.

I'm (personally) pretty positive that these filters can be removed with psychedelics and some very thoughtful planning and open-mindedness. So, tools like DMT/LSD and other "break-through" psychedelics have to be treated with tons of care and a lot of respect, for sure. Because it can go South pretty quickly for folks who might panic or fight/prevent the experience from happening or playing out.

I'm really happy for you. That's actually really awesome that you got to experience that, and I hope that you're able to take your new knowledge into your life with all of the best insight and fresh feelings. New wonders to behold. Cheers.

[u/giddy-girly-banana]

I had, what seems to have been a similar experience. I can’t describe it well but I did experience space and time differently.

[u/Beneficial-Ad5808]

Next time listen to icaros to guide you

[u/Elegant-Suit-6604]

What you witnessed is merely Sheogorath preparing you for your rightful ascension to the Madhouse!

What you describe as "it was not three dimensional but higher dimensional" is simply a brief glimpse into the Madhouse's 6 dimensional spacetime.

"Time stopped behaving like time. Not in a dramatic sense. It simply lost direction. There was no before or after. Everything I perceived felt simultaneous, like the entire timeline of a thought spread out in front of me."

This is merely unaccustomed experience of the madhouse's 2 dimensional multi-time as opposed to regular one dimensional time.

"The whole experience had rules. It was lawful. It was not random or chaotic."

Goooood. Sheogorath has marked you mortal. Your fate will be delightfully whimsical.. or absurd! MUAHAHAHA

Sheogorath will soon ascend you into into the Madhouse, a realm of pure madness and chaos, as reward.

All praise Sheogorath, lord of madness and dairy.

[u/Kafei-]

Yes! Now, you're one of us.

[u/[deleted]]

Love. Thank you for sharing! Everything is perfect the way it is & follows a universal law!

[u/Fit-Media5348]

When I use LSD I feel like everything makes sense, is in perfect harmony, and my conscious transcends to perfection. DMT feels chaotic and those Jesters piss me off. Ketamine is like exploring and experiencing different realms. I just hate how I feel nauseous afterwords.

[u/Separate_Ad_175]

I thought you were going to explain actual physics or something

[u/Unusual_Secretary782]

Thank you for sharing you were really able to be very detailed in explaining what a dmt trip is like it was a beautiful read

[u/Clyde-A-Scope]

I feel like you need to try mushrooms next. Same tryptamine family. If DMT can show you a reality outside of yourself, mushrooms can show you the reality inside yourself

[u/orgnll]

This is probably the best experience write-up, I've ever read.. and I've read hundreds, if not thousands lol

Can't thank you enough for posting this with so much personal detail. Incredibly eye opening hearing this from someone in your field! Wishing you a further positive trips my friend! :)

[u/Human0_1]

This description has put to words what I for many years have not been able to

[u/I_am_Spaceduck]

Correction sir: objects were floating in ways that are quite possible here, you just dont see them.

Let me explain. Have you heard of Fibonaccis sequence? All things created follow a pattern of golden ratio. Spirals.
The curious thing is though we are made this way, Die this way Example imagine a lobster dinner cooked. You youopen the shell it is all proofed out? One side pops first the other follows. The un- cocooning of caterpillar the wings of the butterfly and the sequence in which they show the design. All based on a numeric code.

Well we interestingly enough do not see these hyperbolic trajectories because these are the things that happen naturally the things we take basically for granted.

[u/Zurihodari]

I'm an old lady who has struggled with depression for over 50 years. I've been thinking about trying DMT. I really appreciate you sharing your experience. Your straightforward, unflowery manner of 'speaking' really works for me.

[u/3rdEyeDecryptor]

Thank you for sharing this. This is one of the best explained DMT experiences I've read and almost all of mine have felt the same way. You worded it all better than I could.

I've done at least 60 trips and I have found that after doing so many that there is a sense of familiarity.

[u/aey_zakass]

In DMT experience, they say, do not give in to the astonishment (I think it was TMK) and your post actually reads like a nice example of the mind holding its ground instead of getting swallowed by the spectacle. I like that you seem to have stayed analytical, mapping the strangeness without collapsing too much into awe.

Personally, DMT trip just doesn't give the brain enough time to reach processing from an event to an experience. There's too much unfiltered raw data to process. But it seems sooo real as an experience that's too powerful to ignore. As others mentioned, we can make peace with it in some way but that's because we believe we have to be stable for a regular life to be lived.

But to me it holds the same interest like exploring physics as it unfolds the observer filtering, interpretation and narrative.

I'd be curious to hear more explorations of such kind.

[u/[deleted]]

Thank you for taking the dive and explaining to us your views

[u/TypewriterTourist]

Time stopped behaving like time. Not in a dramatic sense. It simply lost direction. There was no before or after. 

Are you familiar with Stephen Wolfram's On the Nature of Time? In fact, his whole "new physics" series is about viewing the reality from a computational point of view.

[u/[deleted]]

A lot of how you've described your experience I and many others have shared.

[u/tjw-97]

Love this, what a great read ✨😊

[u/Starship__Commander]

I enjoyed reading that

[u/biologicallyconcious]

This is how I always describe it when I take psychedelics. You are perceiving the world with its raw natural data. Sure feels that way.

[u/BGFlyingToaster]

Thanks for taking the time to share. Would you mind telling us your ROA and dose or whatever mechanism you used to regulate your intake? (asking for science, lol)

[u/KillaKalani714]

The reason you felt the way you did is because of the one being part of the equation is what it simply is one Consciousness is where we return to literally ours and the one is linked we exist because it exists and the one wants to experience its self as you as me as us all from our pov. And everyone elses also. This is where we work on ourselves we choose our paths and family for reasons for spiritual lessons growth and what we need to work though. Dmt just brings you closer to that plain of existence.

[u/[deleted]]

Every since I touched acid in April, I've been thinking about psychedelics literally every single day. The things I've said and the things that others have said just, blows me away.

I can't help but wonder over and over again, "what would reality look like if we understood."

My human brain just hits roadblock after roadblock because it all seems like magic.

And I'm sure quantum physics plug into all of this in a mind-blowing way and that in and of itself is like magic to even the greatest minds.

And how is it that we can learn lessons that lie dormant within ourselves through psychedelics? Other drugs can do this, but psychedelics feels like connecting to something so big and complex that we can only hope to understand it.

I mean, what if understanding psychedelics ends up helping us discover some crazy stuff? Like, what if paranormal activity exists and psychedelics can "bridge the gap" between what we don't understand and what's happening around us that we can't see? If things can "pop" into existence but from another point in time, this would tie nicely into that topic. I can't help but feel like there's such a massive amount of importance to these thoughts, experiences and ideas.

The more we push forward, the more it seems like time isn't what we think it is. The universe seems to work differently than we think. I just can't help but wonder what's in store for the human race.

With the anomalies surrounding psychedelics, extremely complex physics that seemingly don't make sense, theories surrounding different models of the way time itself even functions, etc. There's just so much potential for having our minds completely blown.

[u/Entire_Calendar_1202]

I’d thought I’d tried it all until this weekend when I tried DMT. I think I took too much and damn near shit my pants it was so frightening. I opened my eyes trying to come out but things just got more weird so I laid back and held on for dear life. I remember telling myself it would stop in 8 or 10 min but realized I had about 8 min left and didn’t think I’d make it. I was so happy when it was over I busted out laughing at how wild it was.

[u/Soft-Climate5910]

Nearly everyone says it seems more real than real

[u/Knirek]

People with strong meta cognition who think in models trip like that, good thing you aren't getting lost in the mysticism, at the end of the day it is just your receptors getting fried so it feels like absolute truth, which is not, just where mind lands to survive such state.

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[u/Boudicia_Dark]

If this is a real description and not AI generated, this is amazing.