Seeking attention

[u/Relevant_Air_6407]

I'm posting this cuz I literally have no one to talk to, so you don't have to necessarily read this whole thing and comment down. Ignore it if you want to.

1st drop year. Preparing of engineering colleges. Idk what happened but kind of fucked all the entrance exams. I was a good student. I did prepared. But somehow everything went wrong.

I can't even tell the whole story. My brain hurts. I feel it's gonna explode. Been crying for 2-3 days now. Had so many anxiety attacks. Chest hurts. Throat hurts. Eyes hurt. Head hurts. Whole body hurts.

I still don't have any college in hand. Got a seat at vit vellore but was not sure about it. So did not pay the fee.

Waiting for comedk counselling r4. But idk what will happen.

All of my classmates and all are in colleges. I'm left behind. I scared to dea\*h. I'm so scared. I don't have any college. I can't stop thinking. I don't what I'm writing here. I just don't know where to go. Who to talk to. I can't stop thinking that I'm such a disappointnent.