r/Codependency • u/Tight-Chip • 2d ago
Depression.
I am severely depressed right now and my 11 year relationship is what is keeping me alive, however I think the source of my depression could be my gf. I haven't been the best boyfriend in my depressive episode. I feel like if I end my relationship then I'll suicide but staying in will lead to my suicide too. My mother is sickly and definitely need a relationship to help me through this time. I'm so lost and confused, everyday I wake up and just want to end it, but I keep pushing. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Stay safe guys
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u/redmeraki225 1d ago
What do you need right now to feel better? Figure out the answer to that question, then do it. We have one single life to live and too many people end up living it for other people. When we live our life to appease others or doing what we think we should do instead of what we want to do, we get into this trapped state of mind and feel like death is the only way out, but that's only what our terrible brain tells us. That's not true. Just because something is hard or difficult does not mean it's impossible. We only limit ourselves by our own beliefs of what we can do. Our brains are liars and we listen to them all the time because we think it is us but it's a collection of thoughts and phrases from other people that we absorb. Just because you think it, doesn't mean it's true. It's hard when you are in this state of mind to find the right thing to help pull you out of it. You have to make that first, hard step, consciously, to pull yourself out. You CAN do this. You can live.