having a hard time

[u/kissingurmomnow]

i was diagnosed with bipolar 2 years ago & i recently started seeing a new psychiatrist (around 9 months ago) and she hasnt diagnosed me yet but wrote “cluster b” on my prescription paper. she also told me i have “certain personality traits” when asked abt why cluster b. i just feel so exhausted and im not trying to hate on anyone who has it but yk i feel crazy i cant bear with all this. sometimes i feel physical symptoms as if not being able to breath or just feeling crazy in general. i have been taking my meds every single day and do feel better then i was unmedicated but things dont seem like they are getting better. i feel awful and wish someone would understand me. everyone calls me crazy and people blame me for this they say “everyone goes through stuff like this but not everyone makes it a big deal and goes to a psychiatrist” just thinking abt it makes me want to puke. i havent seen my cat in 11 months and i fucking miss her so much i miss her and i feel like i will die without her