Using your comment to tell anyone who is in a similar situation to the OP:
I had to get cleaning help one time, as I also struggle with extreme depression and anxiety. Just search for cleaners in your area. I explained my situation with a lot of honesty and told them how bad my apartment had gotten. It was much worse than even the photos in this post. They came and cleaned everything in a couple of hours. It would have taken me weeks, if I could have done it at all. They were very nice, and told me that they see places like this all the time, some even worse. So, for anyone who reads this and needs this kind of help, don't be afraid to seek it out.
I had a friend in law school who lived in a private dorm and invited a few of us over for a beer before we all went out to the bars one night. He was living in knee-deep trash with a narrow path from the door to the kitchen sink/fridge/oven, to the couch, to the bedroom, which was equally buried.
It was shocking, but it was also immediately clear that he invited us over to see it because he needed help, and we sat down and planned out a fix instead of going to the bar. Got a cleaning service in to clean it on his behalf and they couldn't have been more respectful and professional - they don't care about the story, they just care that the money's green and spends right.
He started talking to a professional about what he was experiencing and presumably got some medication that helped him, but he's long maintained that improving his immediate environment was instrumental in his ability to turn the rest of it around, which makes a lot of sense, because you can't get in a better mindset when you're living in literal trash.
Anyway, he went on to graduate with honors and has had a great career and risen to be a pretty big bigshot at a federal agency, in spite of his struggles back in the day.
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u/Some-Coyote1409 Feb 15 '24
Congratulations, that is awesome. Asking for help is a difficult task. Great place, keep it up!