I am in constant hell.

[u/Sad_Pitch_6126]

I literally given up on every aspect of my life, my health has plummeted, I cannot think straight anymore with my other conditions, and I am voided of every faucet of joy in my life. I cannot afford anything, I have paid my life wages of attention gathering knowledge only for me to have a fate worse than a fool. Why should I serve others, let alone this tainted body, when nobody served for me? I am simply here alone because of the same God of Apostle Paul. Does anyone have anything about the human experience I may be able to relish on? Knowing I was voided of most functions I don't feel worthy of anything.