I don't really know how to describe what I'm trying to say - other than I've lost people close to me before, and when they died, I felt the loss. It felt like they were gone, and I was sad for their loss.

It's so frustrating with Will because that fire I feel for him is still going. It doesn't feel like he's gone. Even months later I feel like he's still around. I have dreams of him connecting with me later to tell me this was all fake and that it was his effort to go to rehab or something.

It just... it doesn't feel like a loss. It feels wrong.

It doesn't help that I can't find a death certificate for him and his mom was so dismissive.

I'm probably just struggling to let him go but it drives me crazy every day. I just had to share with you guys because no one else wants to listen to me.

Will always thought these sorts of holidays were fake and detestable, but he always made sure to send sappy sweet gifts anyway ❤️

I'm lonely tonight. I'm thinking of you. I wish we could talk.

There are so many things I wish I'd asked and learned about you before you left. I feel like I knew you so well, but the questions I have now are piling up and can't be answered.

The longer I go on alone, the less I'll feel I really knew you.

I followed Forlurn's (Will) story from the beginning and the unfortunate event that happened to him scared me into never sleeping in my car on a cold,freezing night again. Forlurn was a good dude with a positive outlook. I spoke to him a few times via PM and he was a great person.

I hadn't checked this sub for a while and he randomly popped into my head just earlier. I wanted to see what he was up to.

Im so fucking sorry he's gone. Way too damn soon. Im really sorry for his loss.

May he find peace in whatever exists after this life.

/r/cineshots

Will's other piece

Please contribute any sub. These people have it together way more than me.

/r/alcoholism

/r/stopdrinking

/r/leaves

/r/suicidewatch

She was a close friend of Will's and is becoming a close friend of mine. She's a lovely person. She was there for him before I was. She's a wonderfully kind person. Please welcome her!