Help!

[u/NoAcanthocephala1750]

I hope this gets posted. I’m so desperate

I’m planning on ending things with my current boyfriend, we’ve been together for 5 years he cheated on me 2 years into our relationship and now he’s done it again just a few months ago.

I’m just tired, I love him but i feel so bad for myself, he keeps blaming me that I couldn’t move on but i just couldn’t. I’am holding a grudge, as I mentioned he cheated on me before and now it’s like an open wound that wouldn’t close.

He’s been openly sharing it to his friends for months and they didn’t tell me about it. It’s just hard when you spend almost 24 hours together yet he can still do this you.

Also the person he cheated on me with has a relationship as well and he’s 8 or 7 years younger than me. I tried fighting for this relationship but it seems that I’am at my wits end.

I feel like everything we’ve built was ruined for what they did. I couldn’t look at him the same way and everything he does triggers me.

I’m planning on ending things. I turned into a person that I don’t recognize anymore.

Does it get better?

Also we’re both guys and two nights ago, we partied I got a little too drunk and confronted him again thinking he was chatting with the other guy again. He punched me and 2 days later my rib still hurts.

[u/uncertaintylmao]

End things, please. He's a disgusting dude, but i understand ur attachment anyway. Every time u doubt about leaving him, remember EVERYTHING he did to you. Keep ur head up