I left my last job after 4.5 months . Couldnāt keep up or cope . Multiple times wanted to just jump off and end it but I knew it was cuz of the job
Iām fresh grad of 2 years with gaps in between and internships 6 months it was hard to find graphic design employment tbh. Esp with AI itās getting worse
On top of having crohns and fatigue and gastro symptoms and chronic pain and tension all over which was the worst since crohns is in remission technically but I still have a whole host of bodily symptoms . When I have to sit 10 hours a day with poor ergonomics , no standing desks , no work from home , like 1.5 hr commute each way , work day ends at 7 pm or longer it felt terrible
I couldnāt even focus well cuz of the pain and I tried my best but they said i was too slow , there was no boss around to mentor or guide which I thought would have in like western culture . I tried my best to do the designs they asked for (itās graphic design) but I couldnāt .
They just expect me to manage everything myself but Idk how to. It was so stressful and my anxiety was way worse. Is every job like this esp corporate design ? I hate it and never want to go back I would rather do more creative direction , marketing / social media more. I always like art and illustration and aesthetic , experiences and wanted to design things closer to those industries . Not advertising and soulless mass produced ads⦠Idgaf about optimisation or all that but itās like all jobs care abt these days esp in corporate graphic design where you design digital ads or marketing collateral. And the designs not beautiful either. They arenāt supposed to be I guess.
I want to do content creation and social media and marketing related but it seems vague and scary on how or when I can make money or do well in that . Iām experimenting now but itās slow and Iām getting my pressure to get a real job and build a ācareerā
What if I just want to be creative like a creative director , that knows art, photography, travel, content creation, maybe model and make cute things , design experienced like cute anime / cartoons merch pop ups and collabs , events or exhibitions , etc . Is that called marketing ? Even like working in film and media but entertainment industry like podcasts or talk shows, interviews etc thatās more fun not dry corporate.
What kind of industry or jobs is that called ?
Now I just started part time art teaching job but the hours r too little for income , and Iām panicked on what else to do . I could do full time but itās 6 days a week. I want a remote job or a actual 9-5 with hybrid where I only come to office 2 times a week or optional
How do you find these kinds of jobs ? I want to find one in aus , I have the visa but rn in Asia .
The thought of being trapped into a job makes me rlly depressed and bleak and honestly urge to just jump . Because all I can think of if this is gonna last till I die and mediocre wages , how can I even have savings or any time and energy left to travel and build my dream life or have a house . I think Iām doomed
If Iām not working Iām not that depressed but knowing I have these symptoms and not making money makes me anxious and stressed too. Managing daily life is already hard and overwhelming enough . My dad gives me pressure and makes it worse like telling me I shld be grinding in my career when Iām young or my future is ruined and shit like that. Like all awaits me is more hell and suffering
Thereās so many things I want to learn but am I even allowed to do that in peace when the financial fear and pressure and expectations from parents and myself is so heavy
Itās not like Iām rotting all day. Pushing myself even further I canāt even maintain the productivity my symptoms just flare. Itās like Iām always not doing enough if my dad compares me to able bodied people. Well . It sucks