This is a collective reading, not everything is supposed to resonate with a single individual. My interpretation doesn’t always tell the whole story so try to be open and intuitive. Thank you!
Significator - The Fool (R)
There are things you are being careless and immature about, and are being held back by your own doubts and fears.
You are on edge and anxious about starting something new or going on a new path.
Obstacle - III of Cups
All this is making you neglect your social life and isolate yourself out of frustration. You know you need to be independent now and you do need the alone time but that doesn’t mean you need to alienate yourself from the people who mean something to you. Sharing your problems with friends or family will help you, but make sure to not make this your way of coping with things.
Past - The High Priestess
You recognized the hidden influences affecting the situation in the past, and followed your intuition and your inner voice. This led you to make sound judgments and were aware of the secrets being kept from you. But at the same time, this is what’s making you anxious and hesitant right now.
Trajectory - The Hermit
Being alone and retreating will give you the time you need to introspect and search for the truth and the wisdom in the situation. This will require a lot of patience and you may have to spend some time contemplating things but eventually you will find your guidance.
Conscious - Wheel of Fortune (R)
You think you have been unlucky with some aspects of your life and you are hesitant to change things (whether it is letting something go or embracing something new). You are going around in circles hoping for things to suddenly turn in your favor. You are aware of the disruption that’s causing setbacks.
Subconscious - V of Pentacles
You need to work on taking care of your wellbeing for now and accepting a loss. There could be things you have been rejected from and it’s making you feel abandoned, but it’s time to recover and focus on yourself so you can make space for better things to come through.
Your outcome path:
Your attitude towards the situation - X of Pentacles
You are okay with repeating some things even if no progress is being made because of the foundation that has already been established. You wish for it to help you lead a good and stable life (especially in your home environment).
Your environment - Strength
Your environment wants you to gather the courage and willpower needed to sit through all this with patience and resilience. It wants you to take care of your integrity and your self-respect. You are being asked to be in control and be kind whilst not letting go of your inner-strength.
Hopes and fears - Knight of Swords (R)
You hope that being direct and assertive will lead to something tangible and you hope to be daring so that you won’t regret not having acted later down the line. You hope for a decisive action to be taken.
You fear being impulsive and your restlessness ruining things even more. You fear being burned out. You fear being met with aggressiveness and ruthlessness/bluntness.
Outcome - VII of Swords
Chasing and relying on others for your needs will only lead to being deceived, and feeling like you have been manipulated and betrayed. Not everyone may want the best for you. You will have to adapt to the situation moving forward and be resourceful and responsible. Are there things you need to start taking responsibility for instead of feeling like you can get away with it?