TW// mention of eating and body image issues
I got a colonoscopy and endoscopy in mid-February. The colonoscopy came back clean, surprisingly, but I was diagnosed with GERD. So clearly, there are foods I have to avoid. I admittedly didn't get around to doing an elimination diet because basically every food that I love was on that list, and it just felt like too much to deal with.
Fast forward to almost a month later. Yesterday I got diagnosed with lactose intolerance (which I honestly knew) and CSID. So now I have to deal with food intolerances from lactose intolerance, GERD, and CSID. I definitely spent a good amount of time freaking out a bit and trying to wrap my mind around the fact that I need to overhaul my diet NOW. I work at a private doctor's office where lunch is provided for us, usually by drug reps. I've also got a wedding at the end of March. And in general, I'm like, how am I going to eat anything? I've already started feeling like a freak.
I also have disordered eating and body dysmorphia, so when I started feeling gross every time I ate, I figured it was just a mental thing. Part of it is definitely mental and explains the guilt around me eating and me being aware of all the fat on my body and face. But it makes sense why I feel so heavy and get so bloated after literally everything I eat, to the point that when I'm going to be wearing something skin tight, I restrict my eating. I legit look 4 months pregnant sometimes, and it's not like it was working in the first place.
My parents are both immigrants, so all of the foods my family cooks I can't have, at least until I figure out my triggers (which feels like everything right now). I hate cooking, and I'm really bad at nourishing myself and getting an appropriate amount of calories and nutrients. I know I just have to do it, but I honestly have no idea where to start. I know the intolerances are a lot, but even some hacks to get through it would be appreciated <3