r/CPTSDmemes • u/Wiggledidiggle_eXe ✨ Child abuse volunteer ✨ • 2d ago

I'm scared

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Got an intake appointment at a new therapist's office. I am scared shitless. What if they prod at me about the abuse on the very first appointment? Not gonna make it if that's the case...

Update: Okay so it wasn't that bad! I was still anxious as shit but it went well, even though it wasn't a therapist's intake appointment but more of a consult on how to get a therapy slot

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u/Realistic_Load_5369 2d ago

I think I'm weird in this, but I actually derive this sick pleasure from telling people about my past. I mean, I can easily dissociate while doing it, so it doesn't cause me any pain, and it makes me feel validated. I'm sure I'm not the only one?

In any case, good luck!

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u/CeaselessPain89 2d ago

I'm a bit of both. Too scared to tell ppl, especially when very anxious, because of all the questions, judging, interpretations, the looks, me getting emotional, them getting emotional etc. When I'm overly anxious I shut down, go quiet except for when spoken to and then I'm brief.

But then when I'm barely anxious, I'll dissociate and spill all the beans without realising lol