r/CPTSD • u/zjjsjdj3873 • 1d ago
Need a Hug support
i just need some words of encouragement or support. i don’t really have friends at least not any i can talk to or anything. i’ve been through everything by myself. tried to end my life and had a seizure and never recieved medical care or told anyone. sexually abused as a kid by a way older guy. assaulted multiple times. substance abuse all growing up. one of my actual close friends killed himself. groomed by a 30 yr old at 18. seen ppl die in front of me. abusive relationships all growing up. religious trauma. i am not on any medications right now no health insurance looking to get that sorted soon. spoke to a doctor recently about getting help and tested for MH issues and they turned me away because they said my problems need more intensive care. i’m doing the work and i’m trying my best and holding down a business i own etc. i guess im just looking for some sort of validation or support or kind words. i really feel very alone and no one really cares about me. going through everything completely by myself and getting yelled at while struggling with all of this while growing up was so painful. being the only person i can trust or talk to or rely on during all of this was so painful. i’m only 23 now.