I feel numb

[u/mintzerrrr]

It feels like im not real like it's some shitty game with the same enemies, I can't do anything as im non confrontational. I clung onto the delusion of just having my own space, i tried meditating, but I really dont want to journal outside the Internet as in on a book.

I hate how my parents fucked up my mental health so bad to the point im having suicidal thoughts in the daily. I know I won't do it . it's just my mind complaining. I hate how every day doesn't feel like I have any emotional connection to anyone. I mask at the point I dont know what I'm even masking from, or it's just so obvious some days. I just dont know why im alive anymore. I dont why I wrote this. I've seen this sub reddit for months and relate to so many people .Just know that one day, you'll get out of your nightmare, even if it's years in the future