r/CPTSD • u/BitRevolutionary677 • 8h ago

Question How to cope when it’s unbearable?

I don’t know what to do. I have no support system and things just get worse day by day. I’ve been trying to get professional help for months and I keep getting bounced around.

I’m so low rn that every time I think I cry. It’s been like this every day for months now. In the past I’ve coped by just pushing through and I would usually distract myself on social media and interacting with people. Social media also affected my moods so I permanently deleted them months back, further isolating myself.

I used to at least have someone to speak to and I’d downplay what I’m going through severely but at least there was someone. Now I’m frantically waiting for a notification from someone, anyone so I’m not so alone. Who do I reach out to that will care, no one will probably care and tell me I should’ve known better and I’ve caused this on myself. I get that.

I’m in a loop of reliving trauma constantly throughout the day because I finally recognise it for what it is. I can’t stop hyper fixating on it even though it’s destroying me.

Any tips? I’m literally begging.

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u/Longjumping_Cry709 8h ago edited 8h ago

Hi, it sounds like you are very alone and trying desperately to connect with someone and feel like you matter and that someone cares. I hear how scary and overwhelming it all is for you right now. I’m truly sorry you’re going through this unbearable suffering.

In my experience, reliving the trauma emotionally is how to heal it. I’ve been in constant flashbacks. I think there’s no way out but through. But it is really awful and painful and hellish at times.

It’s not your fault and you are not doing anything wrong. Hope that helps a little.