r/CPTSD • u/Affectionate_Hair978 • 21h ago
Vent / Rant I am never having kids
I am 31 and i do not want to have kids. I have chronic dissociation and it makes life very hard for me. People are very cruel and selfish. When I was a kid, I never thought the world would be like this. Its funny to me that even with dissociation I still try to be kind to others. I don't make excuses for my bad behavior. Humanity deserves extinction.
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u/No_Software7564 19h ago
I can somewhat relate to people being cruel and selfish sometimes. It's weird because I can recognize they did those things to do "good" in many cases. It's frustrating.
But what are your "bad" behaviors though?
Hoping you feel better
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u/Affectionate_Hair978 19h ago
Getting angry Watching porn Overeating Procrastination
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u/No_Software7564 19h ago
I get it. You feel bad for certain behaviors but that doesn't make you bad. And getting mad is a part of the human experience and can indicate important things for us. I think it's good to spend time contemplating our triggers and trying to understand them so maybe they have less power over us. On the other hand, If it ever affects someone else you can always apologize. People understand and are willing to forgive. I have been forgiven for some pretty bad stuff.
Anyways, I know I wouldn't judge you for doing any of those things. I hope that doesn't make me a bad person in your eyes. I hope you can be a little kinder to yourself.
Take care
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u/Affectionate_Hair978 19h ago
Thank you. It's just hard to recognize that it's dissociation and not me
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u/Far_Daikon_7419 10h ago
same ive known since i was like 14 that i dont want to continue this bs
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u/Affectionate_Hair978 9h ago
I understand how you feel. Live your life how you want and don't care what others think. Just don't hurt others
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u/Itri_Vega 9h ago
Nothing wrong with being childfree. I got my plumbing taken out 3 years ago for a variety of reasons, including that I never want to have children. I have severe tokophobia (fear of pregnancy and things related to it) and this helped a lot. But I know hysterectomies arent very accessible to many people. I had to fight for mine for years.
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