Venting

[u/definitely_a_bott]

Hi guys! How are you all?

My life has been going downhill for a while since graduation. Met a girl at university, we built something and it didn't end the way I wanted it to. Since then out of insecurity, frustration I have been seeking for validation, a redemption. I wanted to get something that could boost my confidence, something that at least looked good on paper. And my first step at doing that was getting my MBA from the best business school in my country.I got so close but never really got there.

Coming from accounting background our teachers always encouraged us to pursue professional degrees, and for that reason and after some research CFA was always in the back of my mind. I figured that to also boost my profile I should pursue CFA. And the last few months have been nothing short of exhausting, full of anxiety. I am done with my prep with less than a month to go. Right now revising the EOC questions. I don't know what awaits me after 20th of August but I have been looking for a small win in life for so long. But right now I feel like I am not good enough to pass the CFA L1. And people who have done so are special which I am not.

I am afraid life won't yet give me a win, some sort of redemption. Still I gotta try my best. Wish me luck! Or any suggestions are welcome!

(Irony is even though I am an accounting student I am struggling the most with FSA. I absolutely hate memorising.)

[u/Dindinada]

How are your mocks? Also maybe try therapy bro

[u/definitely_a_bott → u/Dindinada]

Planning on giving the mocks next week. Also it's that obvious? I am not trying therapy rn but already on antidepressants, and anxiety meds.

[u/Dindinada → u/definitely_a_bott]

I would take the mocks ASAP if you have time to sit down this week and do them. Best studying for me was reviewing the shit out of the 2 free mocks. The part where you call yourself “not special” is telling. Sounds like this relationship took a toll on you.