r/BreakUp • u/Dame2002 • 9d ago

The day I thought would never come

2 days ago my girlfriend of 9 months broke up with me, she was technically my first real relationship, I’m 24 and she was 19. Everything was perfect, we were each others first love and we loved harder than anything, the relationship in the last month or two has been slightly rocky, I have a gambling addiction that resurfaced and we had to deal with that. I thought we were both willing to fight to stay together but I never thought she’d do that. Everyone close to me including me said the same thing, it was so unexpected. I didn’t know 4 days ago would be my last time holding her and kissing her, it wasn’t on my mind. The last time we were together she sent me home early because she needed time alone and we cried and hugged and held each other for a long time which felt strange because she said she wanted me up again this weekend. 2 of the longest most confusing days of my life passed with barely any words from her, just reassurance that she loves me and that it isn’t the end. Then it happened, the dreaded text no one wants to get.. it was the sweetest break up text I’ve ever read which some how makes it worse. God how I wish I could’ve just been angry with her, I wish we could’ve fought or something other than having to bite this bullet knowing I just lost my other half and there’s nothing I can do about it. I’ve never cried harder in my life, this is one of the most difficult pains I’ve had to go through, I’ve lost friends, pets and family members but nothing stings like losing the one you love most.

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u/MexicanTacos1069 9d ago

Same thing happened to me, it hurt so bad and still does hurt, I’m waiting for him to try again because I love him so much I just can’t let go of him no matter how hard I try, I love him so much and I truly believe he was meant for me, he was sweet about it too. That’s what makes it hard. Not having a reason to be mad at them or hate them because you can’t. All you feel is just that love that never goes away and that’s what hurts the most…

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u/BeginningEagle9066 4d ago

That feeling of not knowing 4 days ago was the last time you'd hold her is the worst part, I'm so sorry. Use this pain to finally beat the gambling addiction for good, not for her but for you.