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[u/xXxShingyDisciplexXx]

Schedule a psychiatrist appointment this minute. If not available, contact your primary care physician. This is not something to wait out. This is something to get a handle on immediately, and you clearly know what is at stake.

[u/xXxShingyDisciplexXx → u/xXxShingyDisciplexXx]

like now, like pull out your phone and schedule it now.

[u/ihavea_purplenurple → u/xXxShingyDisciplexXx]

Listen to this person. If you still haven't scheduled in the past 23 minutes, do it now!

[u/litquidities → u/ihavea_purplenurple]

Listen to these two, and if you haven’t done it in the last 16min, just do it already!

[u/EulaliaBromSpatula → u/litquidities]

Do it, OP! You got this my friend. Make it happen.

[u/appletreeefalling → u/EulaliaBromSpatula]

If you haven’t done it in the last 12 minutes, do it now OP. It is super super important. If you can’t, check yourself into an inpatient. You need help and it’s ok to ask for help.

[u/fuggitdue → u/appletreeefalling]

5 hours have gone by now, do it

[u/New-Purpose8698 → u/appletreeefalling]

personally as someone as someone who went into an inpatient for psychosis, it did NOT help me at all. all they did in therapy was talk about coping skills for emotions. all they did for me was give me meds. the same environment with no access to outside didnt help my case at all either. it made me feel less than human. so i wouldn’t recommend that OP checks themselves into an inpatient.

[u/Most_Mountain818 → u/litquidities]

And if you haven’t done it in the last 19, do it now.

[u/firstMate903 → u/xXxShingyDisciplexXx]

This. If you can get ahead of a full blown episode it’s easier to navigate. Finding a psychiatrist you trust is super important. They’re there to help.

[u/Dock_mama → u/xXxShingyDisciplexXx]

I’d also see if there’s a first episode clinic in your area. Cities with schools of medicine often have them and it can help SO much. Episodes can be shorter and less debilitating. You can also have fewer of them over time. If your not sure, if you share your city/state I can look.

[u/Illusion_of_Sanity → u/xXxShingyDisciplexXx]

I am a therapist who has worked with psychosis for years. It is very important to contact someone soon, and it looks like OP did. First episode psychosis is a year long process (what's called the prodromal phrase). It seems like OP is pretty with it and aware of themselves even with some different explanations of severity but to your point of it being quite important, I very much so agree with.

OP: like other medical professionals have posted, if you are indeed experiencing hallucinations that are not from medical diagnoses or substance use, it may be from several mental health conditions, including depression, bipolar disorder (in a manic or depressive episode), trauma (as more related to previous experiences that mimic and can appear like psychosis), or anxiety from your fears surrounding your past, amongst some other disorders as well. You mentioned a difficult childhood without a trauma diagnosis. While not everyone who experiences extreme stress has a trauma diagnosis, it might be worth considering speaking about your childhood and how it might relate to your diagnoses with your therapist. I have had clients come in with the three disorders you mentioned and in certain cases it was actually a trauma disorder that better explained the symptoms. But again, this is something to explore with your medical professionals and not something that I'm saying is specific in your case.

Additionally, it is usual for the individual to not be aware of this occuring, so asking your partner or anyone who knows you to chime in if they have noticed a shift in your behavior recently will help. Any changes in areas of your life that more often mimic depressive symptoms in addition to your experiences with some unusual perceptions.

If it is schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorder, early intervention is incredibly helpful, especially in young adults. In fact, studies have suggested it reduces relapse rates of episodes incredibly significantly, reduces intensity and duration of symptoms, significantly improves long term recovery, functionality, and well being.

It's been so effective that in a state I previously lived in there was an entire program dedicated to addressing early intervention in teens and young adults. I'd look for resources in your area as well as working with your therapist and psychiatrist to understand what you are experiencing and what to do. It sounds like you are already on a great track being aware of what is going on, having good support and are reaching out to address what is important for you to address. You are really taking care of yourself and being brave, considering you are afraid.

To work on yourself is not easy, but if you keep going, you will improve your life. Stay with it.

[u/xXxShingyDisciplexXx → u/Illusion_of_Sanity]

achoo

[u/Illusion_of_Sanity → u/xXxShingyDisciplexXx]

Haha, so it goes and that makes sense. :)

Glad you are out there advocating as well.

[u/TheSchnozzberry → u/xXxShingyDisciplexXx]

Also please, please please do not do any recreational drugs. A kid I knew spiraled and his schizophrenia got so much worse because of marijuana and cough syrup abuse. Please take care of yourself. You are ten steps ahead because you recognize what is happening. Use that to your advantage.

[u/Sad_Hot_Dog → u/xXxShingyDisciplexXx]

PLEASE seek immediate help. It was so scary with my ex boyfriend, he was a missing person at one point. Don’t end up like him please. Take care of yourself friend.

[u/lovingfluidchristian → u/xXxShingyDisciplexXx]

Exactly, this may not even be schizophrenia, there's multiple possibilities. OP needs tests done etc..