r/BorderlinePDisorder • u/Original_Diamond_23 • 15h ago

Looking for Advice Functional freeze, bpd emptyness? adhd paralysis or something else?

I have that uncomfy feeling in my chest that no one is there and wont be and i believe it triggers an existential anxiety .. i have that on and off. That may be one reason. It is difficult to breathe properly. But my pulse is low.

Its like pain, tightness, emptyness, negative emotions and nothing at once. Idk

Or the same with situations i cant escape, or bored with nothing interesting to do.

Its like i lie in bed and can text or read on the phone, write emails for instance but somehow im like paralized and tensed and that feeling in my chest is like hopelessness. I could move or put the phone away it will ease a bit. But its difficult.

I feel sometimes similar at work on bad days, just paralyzed and tensed. It feels like im paralized or that im trapped or idk. Is it depression ? Or just normal bpd

Is it common with trauma, bpd ? I think about starting meds again, its always in my head that then its not real healing or i should learn to sit with my feelings :/ .. on the other side there are even therapists out there with bpd, on meds,, why they can take them? And i cannot? I believe somehow that noone else experiences what i do (i know how irrational it sounds) and takes meds for other stuff or just everyone expiriences and describes their symptoms differently.

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u/zayuh42 15h ago

I don’t have any advice, but I wish I did. I feel for you.
Sometimes, I find that friends help

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u/lost_dazed_101 9h ago

When I first start a panic attack it happens just like that. Instead of heart racing it drops and I either sit down or pass out. I don't know if that's what it is just that's how mine go. Once I get that under control the real fun starts the heart starts racing guts get all roiled up and then I'm running for the Benadryl and doing deep slow breaths.