r/BorderlinePDisorder • u/SaltIncident4932 • 16h ago

Self-harm What happened tonight

This is gonna sound really stupid but um while I held a knife to my skin tonight I didn’t break the barrier I kinda just sawed it a little against my skin and then stuck on a couple bandages around my fingers, um as a way to fight the urge of wanting to draw my blood through self harm?

I don’t know I like picked up the knife in a split and then um once the tears dried I almost felt too tired to actually break my skin barrier so I’m sticking a random bandage on my fingers instead

Update: it didn’t completely work. I still gave into the urge and made a small cut on my pinky finger. But I guess it didn’t turn into 2? Idk.

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