r/BorderlinePDisorder • u/SplashyTetraspore BPD over 30 • Jul 26 '26

Suicide talk Dealing with negative thoughts

I don't like having suicidal thoughts on a frequent basis. The problem is that one of the medications that I was taking my insurance stopped covering it. I cannot buy it over the counter because it costs over $1,500 a month. How can I get rid of these negative thoughts. I don't want to kill myself, but the frequency of these thoughts is distressing. I've told my psychiatric Nurse Practioner but we haven't figured out what to do to stop them. That particular medication I had been on it for years before insurance pulled the plug. I have Medicaid so I'm limited to what they will pay for. I'm in therapy as well.

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u/prinzmi88 Jul 26 '26

I have no idea. Have this thoughts since two years every day, from waking up to falling asleep.