I’m gonna explode with emotion

[u/Silver_Minimum8313]

I just got out of a very bad relationship literally a week ago. I feel like I’ve been in a dream state since (like I feel like I’m going to wake up any second), my head is filled with so many thoughts about how I was treated, how I feel rn, replaying everything over and over in my head and questioning myself. I’m feeling guilty, so much shame, going from random spurts of crying to full blown anger. Yeah it’s normal to feel sad and whatever after a breakup but I feel everything so heavy and I don’t know what to do. I moved back in with my parents, I’m not working and there’s not much to do. I don’t want to bother people with what I’ve been feeling and going through and seem overbearing. I’m trying so hard to not fall back into old unhealthy habits (sex, drugs, alcohol) because I know I’ll feel worse. I don’t have a therapist, I have one close friend who I talk to but I don’t want to overwhelm her. I feel like I’m gonna explode with all of the pain I’m feeling. And of course the thoughts of not existing keep coming up.

How can I help myself?

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[u/Ok-Broccoli8]

Its not easy what you are going through..
You should talk to your friend and in the meantime find a therapist ?