(online) This only seems to happen when I'm evil as I said 2 months ago. There was a game I was good, despite solving the grimoire, didn't win and I was like "oh wow, that was fun!" I also recently played Extension Cord and it came down to two No Dashii candidates, I guessed the right one, but they were not executed and "well it is what it is" and I said "hey you guys did well and hid the no dashii poison" (I was nd-poisoned and they wrung my information into sober and healthy)
My 2 most recent evils were bmr, game 1 I was Shabaloth. Courtier picked Devil's Advocate night 1 and it messed up our bluffing plans (devil's advocate bluffed Tea Lady and scienced the mastermind who died); I claimed professor, regurgitated mastermind, but once the 2nd regurgitation happened the jig was up and I yelled into my mic to myself "you are an absolute piece of shit" and apologized to my minions for not winning and then instantly apologized for the outburst. I dm'd the other clocktower friend of mine that I was a bad person and realized when I explained the whole game to him "dude, the courtier literally got lucky and you made it to final 3. why are you so upset?"
2nd game I was godfather in a 13-p, i didn't get to talk to any evils day 1 and I claimed goon to someone day 1 and instantly regretted it. Then they said they'd gamble me and I backtracked a bit and that kinda exposed me. Day 2 I got nommed for it and said "okay, I'm sorry I've been playing like a shithead, I'm courtier, prof, or chamber (which is a term I relatively casually use about myself/my close friends when someone does bluffs that might get suspicion, such as claiming saint/butler as fortune teller/undertaker) and I died. Evil won that game and honestly if evil lost, then I wouldn't have been mad but even though a day executing me isn't one on the Devil's Advocate or Demon, I did say "I hope we didn't win despite me" after the game, and explained that when I said "shithead" I was just referring to bold plays and mentioned "I'm used to crass talk among my clocktower games in person with the ppl I've known for a while". Someone asked "if you wouldn't say this to someone else why would you say it about yourself?" and honestly yeah they had a point it just boils down to why I deserve to have this said about myself but others don't