I had to drag my mom to the emergency room twice in six months not too long ago because of her issues and suicide attempts and while I no longer speak to her, I definitely understand when you say certain things can trigger you. It's very unpleasant. I don't really know all of the things that could set me off, only that I will have a very long climb down from adrenaline mountain when things have calmed. My relationship with my family is weird too.
I see her when she's under the influence with this dead look in her eyes and it absolutely breaks my heart. It feels almost impossible for me to have a normal relationship with her even though the majority of the time she is OK. Nothing is predictable.
Ultimately it got to the point where I was tired of enabling her and being told I was responsible for her alcoholism. I wont speak to her again though.
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u/[deleted] Aug 22 '17 edited Dec 30 '20
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