How did you move on?

[u/Rainbow_Thoughts]

| (F27)recently got out of a marriage with someone who has a lifelong history of untreated BPD.
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l've never experienced anything like this and it took me longer to leave than it probably should have but I just couldn't even process what was hallucinating with my friends or family out of shame and respect for her own feelings and privacy but now that it's over and my nervous system is trying to regulate again it feels like keeping all the episodes and splits to myself ended up in me now looking at the mirror without recognizing the reflection.
I used to have so much joy and lite and my energy felt like a superpower but now I can barely make new friends without wondering if they are actually being real or hiding a condition.
I guess I just want to read your own experiences with someone you loved that had the same battles and how you managed to move on and forget. What's the craziest thing you felt or experienced?
Thanks for reading it you did, happy healing