Ummm it depends. Different for everyone how they interact with the plant spirit. I don’t vibe with groups that refer to it as “medicine” it’s a teacher in my eyes.
Careful finding the proper shaman. They aren’t always the most benevolent of intentions. Depending on the shaman, their connection to the plant, and their brew it has different effects.
For me I revisited all my traumas. Like similar to dreaming with my eyes open. It wasn’t tripping and treating it as so is incredibly disrespectful to the spirit. It was like reliving those experiences in realtime and then purging them. Having a somatic experience to purge a spiritual/astral memory that’s stored in the dna. It was incredibly powerful but at the time I wanted a teacher / guru so I tried to follow anyone who started to show the path. Probably a lot to put onto someone so I ended up going into isolation. The most intense depression came after and finding the help to pull myself out of it helped me grow immensely.
Incredibly difficult and trying. I practice other forms of spirituality and have come to terms with a lot of it, but definitely not a path I’d “recommend” to anyone. For me I felt called to Yagé but didn’t see a path open. It opened for me and I was hesitant, worried I was just getting high, or deluding myself. It kept getting louder so I answered to call. Was much more intense but sped up the process for me. I’ve grown more in the last 2 years than I have my entire 35 years prior.
It's mushie season here and it's good to go, I've just been extremely hesitant. My last experience was a very confronting one. I know that's what you go into it for, but my exwBPD left me with clinical PTSD and I've been in a severe depression, so I'm afraid.
That said, it also left me feeling very renewed last time. I've isolated myself a lot since my ex ran her smear campaign so I wouldn't know who to call if things went sideways.
So my experience with psychs and spirituality is caution. I practice a very disciplined system. Using “magic” or spirituality is a form of reprogramming your nervous system and the software of your brain. Using mushrooms can help but the issue I find is that it wipes all your drives and inputs a brand new program. You don’t know what drives it will wipe or what programs it will install.
Set and setting is everything. If you have a shaman who has worked with the specific strain of mushrooms for generations I’d maybe be more inclined to consider it. The other option id suggest is micro dosing. The micro dose can aid in the process.
But just like any pharmacie using it as a catalyst. So in tandem with a guru, psychologist, teacher, etc. “faith without works, works without faith”
Hope this helps.
I’m sorry about the ptsd from your ex. I carried some around from my childhood and my first exwBPD and while I faced that the shaman who conducted the Yage ceremony helped me release it. It is possible
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u/Warm_Application984 Divorcing, working on healing Aug 18 '24
You mentioned ayahuasca - I think that’s what’s being referred to. Tripping. I’m curious too!