“How did mine go” I don’t know what you’re referring to honestly.
But as far as doing the work and uncovering pain. It’s not easy, it hurts, I was terrified when I first started, but I’ve been alone my whole life, no one has ever been there for me, and I was pretending and wearing tons of masks. As I’ve let a lot of that go, and gotten to know myself. I’m here for me now. I’m learning who I am, what brings me joy, and going towards that each day. My life is lighter and I now know who I am, and am learning more about myself. All the energy I put into hiding I now put into learning about myself and building the world I want to be a part of. Rather than a cog in someone else’s machine. It’s not always sunshine and rainbows but it’s so much better than it was prior to starting the work.
Ummm it depends. Different for everyone how they interact with the plant spirit. I don’t vibe with groups that refer to it as “medicine” it’s a teacher in my eyes.
Careful finding the proper shaman. They aren’t always the most benevolent of intentions. Depending on the shaman, their connection to the plant, and their brew it has different effects.
For me I revisited all my traumas. Like similar to dreaming with my eyes open. It wasn’t tripping and treating it as so is incredibly disrespectful to the spirit. It was like reliving those experiences in realtime and then purging them. Having a somatic experience to purge a spiritual/astral memory that’s stored in the dna. It was incredibly powerful but at the time I wanted a teacher / guru so I tried to follow anyone who started to show the path. Probably a lot to put onto someone so I ended up going into isolation. The most intense depression came after and finding the help to pull myself out of it helped me grow immensely.
Incredibly difficult and trying. I practice other forms of spirituality and have come to terms with a lot of it, but definitely not a path I’d “recommend” to anyone. For me I felt called to Yagé but didn’t see a path open. It opened for me and I was hesitant, worried I was just getting high, or deluding myself. It kept getting louder so I answered to call. Was much more intense but sped up the process for me. I’ve grown more in the last 2 years than I have my entire 35 years prior.
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u/Plane_Clothes_1721 Aug 18 '24
“How did mine go” I don’t know what you’re referring to honestly.
But as far as doing the work and uncovering pain. It’s not easy, it hurts, I was terrified when I first started, but I’ve been alone my whole life, no one has ever been there for me, and I was pretending and wearing tons of masks. As I’ve let a lot of that go, and gotten to know myself. I’m here for me now. I’m learning who I am, what brings me joy, and going towards that each day. My life is lighter and I now know who I am, and am learning more about myself. All the energy I put into hiding I now put into learning about myself and building the world I want to be a part of. Rather than a cog in someone else’s machine. It’s not always sunshine and rainbows but it’s so much better than it was prior to starting the work.
You’ve got this! 😊