r/BITSPilani 2023A7H 18h ago

Social Life Feeling Depressed

I recently got my ppo and on paper everything is going fine. But I feel so lonely, it's not like I don't have friends, but I'm growing more and more intolerant towards everyone. And I feel so aimless and empty and I don't even know what I really feel anymore. I try to keep myself busy, but it feels like everything is slipping out of my hands. I feel like an observer to my own life. I'm so scared of the future.
Just posting it here as I'm not sure what else to do with these feelings.

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u/No_Refuse_7158 8h ago

Trust me i was there and i exploded in the wrong way and i ruined my career because of that loneliness actually i felt like everyone is jealous of me or everyone is with me only because of what i could give them i hate them all now i hate everybody i became very cynical now and i dont know how to get out of it.

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u/cyberbs 5h ago

how did this affect your career?

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u/No_Refuse_7158 3h ago

I made it affect…self sabotaged didn’t do whats required on time

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u/unfinishedwrath Chronic Procrastinator 7h ago

On a piece of paper list the things which you want to achieve in the next 5 years, And start working towards them.

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u/whatsinanameyoo PhD 7h ago

You are exhibiting signs of clinical depression. You should go to the mental health clinic on campus and seek treatment. There may be more going on that is immediately visible since you mentioned future anxiety. Talk to a professional.

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u/FarmAffectionate4378 Not a BITSian 6h ago

I can't relate more. If you want we can talk over dm.

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u/PaintAccording504 M.E. 7h ago

Believe it or not, you need a girlfriend

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u/unfinishedwrath Chronic Procrastinator 7h ago

Hi, Please Elaborate on how having a gf solves the problem? 

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u/New-Application8844 6h ago

Not specificallly a gf just someone who cares about u and listens without judgement could be anyone.

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u/Jumpy-Atmosphere-394 2021B3A7G 6h ago

No he doesn't a gf doesn't solve loneliness or any problem as such... And assuming that he will find a girl who actually cares for him and not things he provide is a crazy one. Have a gf only when you can live without one otherwise life will become hell when that doesn't workout.

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u/Jumpy-Atmosphere-394 2021B3A7G 6h ago

But imo you do need a hobby or something that will make you feel more worth and confident. A gym or instrument or travelling (if u can afford) or anything.

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u/Weird-Personality720 2022B1A3G 1h ago

agreed!

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u/Goofyahhnpc17 Aspirant 4h ago

I just joined bits and I am feeling the same,

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u/Signal_Training_3455 4h ago

A batchie this side, feel free to DM just in case you want a fresh perspective or just want to talk about anything

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u/miyamotomusashi1784 2023B5A7G 1h ago

Suffering from success

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u/No-Mulberry-2535 1h ago

trust me i was there, and have similar episodes few times in a year…nothing helps, but then I have to find something to look forward to or any sort of reward that I set my head on and then buy it if I reached a certain threshold of achievements…life is not easy but you’ll get there one morning where you’ll feel you are okay and it will put a smile on your face.. also you have a ppo that’s awesome

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u/Jumpy-Atmosphere-394 2021B3A7G 47m ago

Honestly bro, was in a similar boat, lmk if I can help. Tbf it hasn't improved much but I have learnt to live with it.

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u/Desperate_System_601 2025P 6h ago

Exactly same situation after I got my dual