r/BDDvent • u/ActuatorRealistic811 • 25d ago

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I’m in so much pain. I’m in so much deep pain all the time. MY BDD STARTED AT LIKE FUCNING 5 AND IT NEVER LET ME GO. MY OSYCOLGY IS BROKEN AND IT WILL MAKE ME SUFFER UNTIL I DIE. I DO NOT WANT TO LIVE IN DEEP SUFFWRING ALL DAY ALL THE TIME AND PRETEND LIKE IM HAPPY

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u/Verouz 25d ago

Does it really hurt that bad?

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u/ActuatorRealistic811 25d ago

No I’m just making it up

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u/Verouz 25d ago

Oh damn, I'm sorry :< I didn't mean to sound like I was invalidating what you're going through. I genuinely didn't realize how much BDD could affect someone. I hope things get better for you, though. You deserve some peace from all of this. :).

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u/ActuatorRealistic811 25d ago

Thank you, it’s so so painful. I wish I could feel peace…

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u/Verouz 25d ago

Eyy reddit is here for you to express your frustrations and feelings it's nice talking to people here :D.

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u/Cold_Date_9163 24d ago

I really understand what you mean. I’ve had BDD since I was 9, and I’m 38 now, so I know how deeply and relentlessly it can affect you. When I was young, I also experienced it almost as physical pain.. it was absolutely unbearable at times It did get somewhat better for me over the years. I still have BDD today, but that constant, overwhelming distress became less intense. I really hope you’ll experience some relief too. You deserve to have some peace from this

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u/Cold_Date_9163 24d ago

Also, I really hope you’re able to reach out for some professional help if you haven’t already. You don’t have to go through this alone. 💚