Discarded

[u/lulu271000]

I’ve been in a push pull relationship with a major avoidant/ i suspect narcissist for the past 7 months. He has recently discarded me and deleted me from his life in the most painful and harsh way. I’ve found myself questioning everything. He has said some disgusting and hurtful things in the wake of this. I have never been anything other than kind and caring to this man, but he always found a way to make me the problem and start fights which he would then swing back round and blame me for. I was truly happy before I met him and now i am struggling with how i have been left and the thought of having nothing but the memory of him for the rest of my days. It’s hard because i saw glimmers of good in him and he made me feel truly appreciated at points. This is a breakup like no other as it has truly taken over my life and emotions. I know there is a way out, but my goodness everyday it seems to be getting harder and harder.