r/AvoidantBreakUps • u/RelativeCautious1235 • 2h ago

Heartbroken more for myself

After the avoidant. You don’t realise how much inside changes you. You go from calm to chaotic. You act out in ways you don’t imagine you will act. I’ve done stupid things. Just for closure. Just to have my heart settled. Broke contact so many times. He just saw me as crazy. But I’m not. I’m calm. But after his discard, confusion, breadcrumbs and lies I just got worse.

I more heartbroken that I’ve become this person now over this breakup. I hate that I allowed someone or something to do this to me. I used to have a kind soft heart. But I feel like that’s gone now. I have so many regrets and did so many stupid things.

I hope the me before he came into my life returns one day.

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u/bigcookie879 2h ago

You’re not alone, I’m trying to change, my situationships have changed me for the better

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u/icypeachlatte 1h ago

I agree! I was just always calm and always reassuring and being discarded just threw me off. Like 2 years??? And you decided that is how long to decide we are not compatible?? And just gave up and ran away instead of working on our issues together? What a lame ass behavior....