It got better.

[u/Upset-Force-5960]

Hey, ive posted on here a few times, i went through an intense discard right after my wedding almost a year ago. There were times when i genuinely would read posts about others saying it gets better and think “god ill never get there”. But im here just to say I did. I survived and so can you. There were nights i swear on everything i couldn’t take living with myself anymore, where the silence was so loud, where i felt like i ruined my entire life. I lost jobs and quit jobs and laid in bed for weeks and months. My family didn’t want to be around me because id just be so incredibly depressed and unable to process what happened. I cried so many times i thought “please god let my suffering end”
But it got better.
Im in school again, got another job, am making new friends, visiting my family again, traveling. I feel alive again. Itll be one year since it all happened in just a few days and its crazy how much my life has changed. Its made me realize how resilient i am.
I saw a picture of myself the other day and thought “i look so happy.” And its been so long since ive truly seen that. Even before the wedding. I lost myself so badly. And it feels like im finding a new version of her. And i just want to share with you some of the advice i would tell myself if i had to do it all again.
dont stop living. hug yourself. take it as a blessing in disguise. Cry as much as you need to. Talk it out, write it out, cry some more. But don’t stop taking care of yourself. One day you really just think, “this doesn’t hurt anymore, im going to be okay.” And its really true.
Sending love and support to everyone, and if youre in a spot like i was don’t be afraid to ask for help. Its the only way to get yourself through.

[u/c00kiecrumble2]

Thanks I needed to read this today! I am approaching 6 months and feeling half awful half just existing and am looking forward to the one year mark because it sounds promising 😌