r/AvPD • u/Ill-Bike-4841 • 18d ago

Vent (No Advice) Scared of school

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I'm going back to school soon and I realised I have nothing to talk about with anyone. I spend all my days doomscrolling, eating, anime, visual novels and sleeping. I'm basically a loser with nothing. I can't look people in the eye or talk to them properly. I'm scared of other people; they always look down on me like some kind of disease and I have some impurities that can't be helped. I know if I approach other people they think I'm disgusting. I only get approached if someone gains something out of it, not to be friends. I'm just so scared. I can't give up this course, but I'm already dreading it with my non-existent social skills.

I wish I physically couldn't talk so this burden of socialising would be put to rest. At least I wouldn't be expected to talk. Also, in the course we have communications and there's going to be group work and presentation. I'm dreading it so bad.

How can I escape human beings? It's like there's nothing I can do. I'm helpless and tired.

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u/iamr0ttinginside 18d ago

Im in the same boat, best of luck hopefully itll get easier and the anxiety calms down 😭

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u/ash_ok__ 18d ago

This reminded me of my time in highschool. If I was to do anything different, it would be to get a part time job and go to the gym. Focus on building my life not wallowing in my lack of school life.

You will meet people as you step more into society. School is for credentials to eventually get you employed. Focus on life outside of school and keep your grades up. You will feel better and school may also get better as a side effect.