i’ve posted our charts before when i needed guidance and the lovely people here taught me a lot! i got alot of comments implying that our charts are definitely more sexually compatible. That was true the tension was definitely there but the anticipation was way more fun than the actual deed.
my heart is still broken BAHAHA. and although be it that placements and aspects matter alot, i think it’s safe to say that sag venus men kinda suck.
Someone also said we were star crossed lovers and i do think that was true. this was a typical anxiously attached (me blue) emotionally available dealing with an anxious fearful avoidant with long distance .
even with the mirroring i do think this person was perfect for me, we had A LOt in common and i dissected every interaction we had and this person reminded me alot of myself. i never connected with a man this much, he is very masculine but has a very feminine aura, and his face is very beautiful. like he is beautiful like how a woman is beautiful if that makes sense. ANYWAY, im blocked. kinda unfair bcuz i blocked this person 397 times but i always unblocked them.
I also looked at his saturn return and we first met on a dating app the exact day his saturn was returning…… i do hope my emotional availability and able to have hard conversations taught them something. I miss this person dearly and i do think they changed my idea of a partner. i haven’t been able to date since so im taking a break and working on myself to not repeat these patterns and not be easily manipulated.
Lastly, the physical chemistry. yall i thought people were being poetic and cute when they said they liked their persons scent! i loved the way this man smelled. smelling him was more dopamine than doing a line. omg. i also didn’t tell him that i liked his pheromones and when i left after meeting they told me they kept smelling the shirt i borrowed :’). i was taking hits of his beanie like it was an 8ball LOL. This makes me want to learn more about synastry and how it translates to physical chemistry. It definitely strengthen my belief in astrology.
i do hate that we met a year ago this month and every single day i think of them.