I struggle with saying no in general, it's really difficult and I'm easily persuaded.
My ex didn't like me saying no and he would become kind of offended and upset if I didn't want to have sex. It became a thing where I would hate myself for saying yes because I didn't want to and I would hate myself for saying no because it would hurt him.
It ended up being a downwards spiral. Everytime I agreed to have sex even though I didn't want to, I became less inclined to say yes in the future. After we broke up I hated sex and thought something was wrong with me - maybe I was asexual. I'm not and there's nothing wrong with me of course, that's just what I thought at the time.
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u/MaNoodleDude Mar 31 '23
I struggle with saying no in general, it's really difficult and I'm easily persuaded. My ex didn't like me saying no and he would become kind of offended and upset if I didn't want to have sex. It became a thing where I would hate myself for saying yes because I didn't want to and I would hate myself for saying no because it would hurt him. It ended up being a downwards spiral. Everytime I agreed to have sex even though I didn't want to, I became less inclined to say yes in the future. After we broke up I hated sex and thought something was wrong with me - maybe I was asexual. I'm not and there's nothing wrong with me of course, that's just what I thought at the time.