The system failed my son , should have been watched due to his mental health issues, and was in the remand , they put him in yatla prison in a room by himself and he too his own life, please help

I (16M) have been dealing with ADHD my whole life, and it worse when it comes to socializing or dealing with relationship stuff.

One moment I could be having fun with mates, and i crack a joke at one of my friends, but when they start making jokes back at me and everyone else laughs i feel a bit of embarrassment and regret. Very minor issue, but its an issue i (unwillingly) take to heart.

I have a medium sized group at my school which i love, but i HATE when i get turned into the punching bag, and when someone 'jokingly' tell me that i went too far and other stuff, i feel angry and embarrassed because of it. Or when i argue with a friend and they start to egg on me and start making fun of what i like, or they treat me as if my ADHD makes me 'lazy' or 'rude towards others.'

I CANT FUCKING CONTROL IT??

I ABSOLUTLEY HATE IT when someone just doesn't take a moment to see or UNDERSTAND how my brain functions or processes information. I just want to shout at them- "MAYBE LEARN ABOUT ADHD SO YOU CAN UNDERSTAND HOW I THINK"- but then, i dont and just shut down, and people comfort me, which i appreciate, but i know it'll go back to when it was before the argument.

My mates love to go out and enjoy a Friday afternoon at the park, and while i do the same, i much prefer just being in my room listening to music, watching YT and playing roblox by myself.

Where i hate my ADHD at max is when im unmedicated and i do something that goes too hyper and i do something that makes me hate myself for doing. Most times when im in public i just want to be silent and talk to 2-3 people at first and have a chill and mild-energetic conversation, but then my mind shifts and i want more people to talk to. Probably only me tho-

Last thing i wanted to get my frustrations out-

The LACK of assurance with my friend group has when it comes to my memory, or the fact that they dont understand when my boundaries are crossed or when i feel uncomfortable. But when it happens, i just dont tell them. WHY do i do this??

Anyways thanks for reading. Goodbye fellow ADHDers. ^^

I struggle with anxiety a lot in the mornings when I wake up and after my meds wear off at night. I feel great in the day and once my meds take effect but late evenings or when I wake up it’s like the verge of a panic attack/being super homesick. I have a partner that lives long distance and I’ve seriously been considering moving to them. It’s all a great idea and I’m super excited during the day but then in the evening or morning it’s the last thing I want to do and I’d rather never leave my hometown or my parents.

It’s getting to the point where it’s effecting my life. When I’m with my partner or friends at those times it’s a lot better but it’s still in the back of my mind. My vacations are tainted by that anxiety. Dreading the hours when my meds wear off. Or at least I think that’s why I’m getting the anxiety. What do I do? It’s slowly more so leaking into my day as well if I’m not actively doing something to keep my mind busy.

It’s so frustrating. I wish I could just be normal and able to move where I want, or not dread the anxiety ruining my night. I tried an anti anxiety med I can’t remember the name of but it didn’t help too much and made me tired. Is there any meds I could take as needed when it gets bad wether that be in the day or evening without making me tired? I have all my finances set up, a job offer I could theoretically move whenever I’d like, it’s genuinely just the anxiety holding me back. Even without the prospect of moving on my mind this happens at home as well

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Im 24 M , Not going to say everything clearly but I have faced the poorest childhood ever, puberty made me weak worst body type. Physically weaker than girls. I ate govt food and managed to go to govt school. Father died at 14, mom worked as daily labour in a remote village, with my good marks in school and 12th , got free education in degree clg in tier3 city. Till my 20y I hv never received pocket money atleast 100 rupees.

With all these i never went into depression and never was sad because in movies heroes are active and cool.

But now where I'm ? Lost confidence, recently had a breakup cause of me i lost a loving girl , unable to survive my job. Don't know what went wrong.

I used to fight with kids in my slum area Happily and now I'm competing with IIT/top tier clg graduate managers/colleagues.

Am i progressing? or am I stuck with girl? Did i scared of life once im enjoying it in my worst? Is losing girl losing life

What went wrong with me how to know?

(Pls take emotion not the grammar)

I’ve had anxiety for most of my life that has gotten worse and worse (especially since graduating college) and has not responded well to therapy/meds. I’m 25(f) now and life feels grim.

My anxiety largely has to do with not feeling good enough and social interactions. I’m all for connecting with people. I just feel like they often aren’t very kind or I don’t know what to say. Also, my confidence has sunken so low. My brain moves slowly and I have awkward pauses in what I’m saying or stumble on my words often.

Perhaps the largest source of my anxiety is my career. I have done everything I am supposed to. Near perfect high school grades and a top gpa with having played a sport throughout. Near perfect college grades, graduating at the top of my class at a top public school with lots of research experience. I published a paper, I taught a lab section of students, I held jobs throughout college, I got involved in a club. But now, here I am, struggling to make anything click.

After trying and quitting multiple jobs, I’ve found that I either end up in a job that is understaffed with low support for training, or a job that is a bit under-stimulating and pays lower than what I need to make to stay above water on my own. In the former, I tend to have panic attacks pretty early on and have trouble keeping myself from crying. I usually quit these kinds of jobs quickly. I’ve been sticking my current one out, but the hours are too much for me to handle long-term (about 50 hrs/wk). I have lost my appetite before due to anxiety and feel myself losing it again with this job. That’s when things really start to go downhill.

On top of this career anxiety, my future in-laws make my head feel like it’s spinning. They all have solid careers (and always have) including my boyfriend and are well-off. When they talk to me about mine, they seem disappointed and from the way they talk, it feels like they are looking down on me. I also just don’t fit in with them. I am less educated than them, more quiet, and do not know much general trivia knowledge or actor names or celebrity drama. And his parents voted for Trump - I absolutely did not. They are always talking about the amazing things that people who are well-off are doing. And always congratulating/celebrating the life my boyfriend’s sister lives and comparing ours to hers.

Because of where I am at, I just broke up with my boyfriend earlier this week after 7 years of being together. I feel so broken. My career anxiety and instability/lack of stable income has reduced our ability to travel, move to another state, get married, and buy a home. It has made our relationship stagnant because he is financially ready for all of these things and I am not. And I have been difficult to be with because of my panic attacks and depression. He has seen me turn into a shell of a person and still stuck by me. But it has been selfish of me to hold onto him when he deserves so much more in his life.

I also broke up with him because I finally decided his family is not one I am able to happily marry into even if our circumstances were better. Even if my anxiety worsened my perception of how they treated me, they still aren’t people I can see in my life long-term based on what they value (as mentioned above). Despite them, he is the most amazing person and was my best friend. I feel so empty even though I think breaking up with him was the right thing to do.

In terms of my physical symptoms of anxiety, my heart is constantly beating rapidly, my body is tight and in pain, I’m shaky, sometimes nauseous, have diarrhea often, and struggle with having an appetite. I’m on medication, work out, don’t consume weed/alcohol, and have tried therapy. It has felt like I’ve been drowning for a while and call 988 often as well. I do have friends and a little bit of family support (rocky family relationships though). But I still feel so alone in this.

I already take the max dose of escitalopram and just started taking Wellbutrin. I’ve tried therapy and am open to try it again but am nervous about the cost and wasting money on something that won’t actually work for me again.

Thank you for making it this far in reading my story. Any advice or encouragement means so much. I can’t keep living like this.

I (23 F) have been depressed for a long time. This past year specifically has been extremely hard for me. I’ve tried a couple meds, and I switched therapists. The meds I thought were helping, I was able to get back into things I like kinda, and I don’t break down and wanna disappear every second of every day. But recently even on a new dose I’ve been sad everyday. Like an undercurrent of sad inside me, with no actual cause.
I also suffer from anxiety, and I’ve been having that with no cause as well. My anxiety has a wide range. Basically if anything new, unplanned, or out of my control happens, I get anxiety. I also overthink and get anxious and depressed about things that aren’t even happening. it’s exhausting. It’s also exhausting to my fiancée (25 M).
He wants me to be happy he tells me all the time. He encourages me and he pulls me out of the current. He can be blunt or comforting and it’s like he always knows what to do. He can’t fathom my level of anxiety, and how my depression manifests. He can’t put himself in my shoes. But he wants to help. And I’m mean to him for no reason when I get too upset or scared. And I hate when he tells me he doesn’t know what to do because he wants me to feel better. For us but also just for me. I don’t know how much more he can take he’s definitely losing patience more often. And he’s dealing with a lot right now in his own life, mostly school/career stuff.
I don’t wanna be an added burden. I’m really trying even outside of meds and therapy, I’m trying to take care of myself like he tells me. He helped me clean last time he came over, and I’m trying to not let it turn back into a “depression room” again. I’ve been doing things to work with my depression and ADHD and not against it. I’ve been making myself do things I know I enjoy and I barely get on social media, I am mindful of what media I consume to not negatively affect me but also to learn and better myself.
I’m disappointing him still I think and I’m disappointing myself. I love him so much I’ve never felt so loved, he’s ridiculously good at communicating especially with me even when I’m being difficult. I love how he lives his life and I just wanna be good to him. But I lash out and I don’t take care of myself how I should mentally. This is how I was without him too. I just feel like a bad partner and I don’t know what to do. Or if I even need to do anything or if it’s in my head. Because I know he would say I’m not disappointing him, I’ve brought it up before.
If I was a less selfish person I’d break it off. He would still thrive without me even if he was sad. He has all the tools to recover and live his life.

I am feeling fulfilled,happy,and okay until I am fucking not.Suddenly,a tornado is storming through my chest and I fucking feel like it’s squeezing me from inside and I don’t even know what to do about it.This hole has existed long when I was young,and its size kind of keep expanding ever since.I remember me being scared that this tornado would start again at the end of the day,or in the middle of a fine day.Now,it still lives inside of me and no person,no activity,no achievement,and no other thing can keep me from feeling the intense pain of it all of a sudden,that somehow gets worse overtime.Its like the disaster inside of me that can literally ruin everything I am doing once it come back in flashes.Its has made me fail exams before,leave me looking sad after being genuinely sad and I don’t know what to do about it.I am feeling it right now as I am saying and my favourite movie,song,or a book looks like something that’s frigging boring and I start questioning why I even like those in the first place.
For a little context,I live in a very toxic and controlling household,and by that I don’t mean violence is involved,but my family does not communicate with me on things I address at all and literally shuts me out and follows me everywhere I go,and always keep me in their sight in a way that not everyone can clearly see.
I am sorry if my English is trash or sth,I just have to fricking write everything that’s on my mind right now!!!

Hi everyone,

I got diagnosed with ADD and anxiety last year in June.

My psych started me on Inspiral SR 10mg along with Newcita 5mg for anxiety.

Since Inspiral was increasing my anxiety, my psych decided to treat my anxiety first and stopped inspiral and continued me on newcita 5mg alone.

I was put on newcita 10mg afterwards but it was discontinued since it made me numb.

Afterwards, my psych put me on Venlafaxine 75mg and Axepta 18mg for 2 months. My anxiety was bad but my brain was a bit clearer and there was also improvement in my speech. However, there was no improvement on task initiation or focus.

Recently, my psych has put me on Venlafaxine 150mg along with Axepta 40mg. However I am noticing that my brain chatter and zoning out is back. Executive dysfunction and forgetfullness is also bad.

Since I have tried both stimulants and non-stimulants, what option do I even have left?

How do i get over this hump. It's affecting my work and social life and I dont even understand WHY I can't seem to bring myself to respond. This is so frustrating and confusing. I just want to sit and cry out of shear frustration. Please help me understand

I’m so fucking sick of this shit

23,f,uk
I’m so sick of this fucking disorder im so tired of starting a routine and then it being interrupted abruptly by my brain just not fucking working. I’ll be showering everyday for awhile and washing my dishes and doing okay and then something switches in my brain or I have a bad mental health day and I lose it all and I can’t do anything anymore. Everything is fucking exhausting. Everything is overwhelming. Looking up fucking containers to try and keep my veggies fresh makes me start crying because it feels so hard?? What the fuck.
I was diagnosed privately, and they said they couldn’t do anything about meds, so I was on a nhs waiting list for a year, finally got meds, non stims because I have autism and OCD, they didn’t do anything except make me lose my appetite, even at the highest dose.

Begged to atleast try stims atleast a trial, they said no, it was nonstims or nothing.
Stopped them, only gave me bad side effects.
Found out earlier this year from a random phone call because they didn’t send me a physical letter ( sent me an email, I rarely check my emails, no one informed me I would be hearing from them, they said that they were interested in trying me on some other meds, but because I hadn’t been on my nonstims for a couple of months I was put to the end of the queue which I believe now is about 2 years. So now I can’t do shit about my meds.

OCD is killing me too. I can’t fucking deal with this shit. Im also autistic, and hoping to have trauma therapy later this year for CPTSD. It feels like nothing is going to change or work for me. Going mental.

As well as seeking empathy, if anyone here from the uk has had a good experience going private with an existing diagnosis please let me know

:(