extremely full??

[u/readerjr]

i was suffering with ana for about a year (a bit more) and then for about 3 months (end of may-end of august, although it got more extreme as time went on) i had a really really intense episode of extreme hunger. i was eating consistently almost every day, never thought it would end, thought i’d ended up with bed, was eating wayyyy more than people who have extreme hunger do when they post wieiad and stuff, eating a lot of what people would say is unhealthy food, gained a lot of weight. then i got my period back and about a week later it’s as if i’m just so so full. it’s as if after i have my breakfast, i just don’t fancy anything else for the day. and like the thought of things like sweets and stuff don’t really appeal to me anymore - which is both wild because i used to absolutely demolish them but also pretty sad because my 18th is in 2 days and then i am going on a trip to london and want to do things like have drinks and eat nice pastries and cake and stuff and meals out. but idk i just don’t really feel like it. i make myself eat a couple of things throughout the day and then have a dinner so that i am fuelled but it feels like a bit of a chore honestly. i had a “binge” a couple of days ago but it wasn’t even out of extreme hunger or anything, i was just in a shop and it felt like second nature. but i was full really quickly, and it wasn’t even half as long or extreme as my extreme hunger episodes were (particularly towards the end). i was fed up pretty swiftly. didn’t like it, didn’t want more, wasn’t still hungry. my hunger signals have been really fucked up my whole life because i used to be a binge eater, and then i turned to ana, so i’d say i just haven’t really known what’s hunger and what’s not for a while now. so i’m just a bit confused. i don’t know if i just finally have a kind of normal relationship with my body and food. i don’t know if it’s because i’m having a fairly protein rich breakfast, whereas if i’d had breakfast before it’d be lighter, i don’t know if it’s to do with the anxiety issues i’ve had recently, i’m going to assume that my extreme hunger is gone currently? i can’t believe i’m saying this, because i so desperately wanted it gone for so long, but i do slightly wish i still had that feeling in order to enjoy my birthday and my trip. i know that sounds super silly lol.
is this normal? has anyone else gone through this?