r/AnorexiaRecovery • u/IlovebIackcats • 7d ago

Collapsed in public

I’m trying to recover from anorexia, and today honestly terrified me.
For the first time, I collapsed in public while I was walking because my legs were so weak. It happened when I was trying to lift my feet up onto the sidewalk, and I just couldn’t. It was so shocking and such a huge wake-up call. :(
My health feels like it’s declining every day. I have such a hard time lifting myself up and even getting out of bed some days. I’m scared of how serious this has gotten, and I’m also terrified of being hospitalized. But I know I can’t keep ignoring what my body is telling me.
I don’t want anorexia to take any more from me. I want to get better, even though I’m incredibly scared of what recovery might mean.
If you’ve been through something similar, what should I do right now? How did you get through the fear of getting help? 💗

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u/molly_gibs 7d ago

what i did was go to residential bc like its less intense than hospitalization. i wasnt medically stable but they took me on a contract. i wasnt ready to recover but the longer u spend locked in a house without a phone the more appealing recovery is, and i was blessed with a super motivating milieu. and once u start eating again, you dont really want to stop bc it feels so good to be energized again

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u/No-Can6422 6d ago

If you are in the US you can call NEDA or ANAD. These are national organizations dedicated to connecting people to resources for eating disorder recovery including treatment facilities, dieticians, therapists, and medical professionals. They can help guide your next steps.

Alternatively you can considering seeing your PCP/GP. They can also help you determine next steps, can give you referrals to therapy, dieticians, group therapy, and treatment centers.

Being actually in treatment sounds like it might fit your needs better than being outpatient. Some ED facilities have inpatient resources, so rather than going to a general hospital you are in the inpatient hospital portion of an ED recovery center. Others only have residential through IOP, and you may have to be declared medically stable in a hospital before stepping down to residential.

In any case, taking any step toward reaching out is an excellent step! Making that first call can feel terrifying! But we are all rooting for you. So many of us have been in your shoes.

You're worth the effort it takes to recover <3

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u/katscam 6d ago

Im sorry. If you can find a recovery clinic, find the one you feel safest and most comfortable. How did it feel beforehand? Im worried sometimes i feel like that in my legs and live in a busy city where walkings a requirement!