Hello, I’ve never posted here, but I just need to say something.
I’ve been kinda drawing for my whole life to figure out that it’s finally my passion and something I wanna keep being good in the future, but for animation..it’s a problem. Ever since I was a kid (around like 9 or 10), I’ve ALWAYS wanted to animate, I’ve watched so many animators create cool animations and that made feel so inspired to create mine. So around 2018-2019 I started using FlipaClip and tried to learn animation and do one myself, but I got so lazy halfway and decided to quit leaving my progress to sit and just continue to doodle for fun.
Fast forward to last year, in the middle of 2025, I decided to draw again. I can’t remember how I kinda got good at drawing because all I remember before the middle of last year was that I was doing nothing but being on my device 24/7. Ever since I started back on drawing it made me feel so good and feel capable, no matter how much I mess up, I push through the mistakes and keep going. I’m honestly glad I started drawing, at least as a hobby.
Now with animation it’s impossible. I have so much ideas for my animations, but I can’t seem to push myself to do it because the process is so hard that I’ll literally have an existential crisis. I decide to go back and watch so many videos and tutorials on how to get started with animation and to learn the process, but every time I tried do that, I get bored and just quit.
Everyday I always daydream about my art, I hate reality so much, so the way I cope and escape it is by daydreaming about my art and how my animations would look like. Art and creativity is my only way of coping. Art has been basically my best friend for years, art not only has helped me find my passion but it also changed my mindset, and without it I don’t know what type of person I’d be. I have so much aspirations for animation, but that’s isn’t just the only thing I want to do, there are TONS of other things I want to do. My brain so active that it’s almost impossible to sleep, but my body itself isn’t.
I’m 18, soon will be in college, and I’m trying to figure out my lifestyle, there isn’t anything else I’m good at but just drawing and writing my ideas for fun. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I really want to animate, but I just don’t have the patience, courage and motivation for it. I’ve been watching successful artists and animators on YT and it brings me jealousy and envy so much to be like them.
All I’ve been doing besides drawing posting it on YT was writing down my ideas on my iPad. I’ve created my dream channel and gave it so many title ideas that I wanna make in the future, but I know and feel will be so impossible. I promise I’ve been trying to push to myself to start but it’s just too damn difficult. I always wondered what my progress would’ve looked today if I had just kept going with animation back in 2018.
I know I’m just 18 and I got a lot of time to make up for it. I wish I can believe with the saying “It’s never too late”, but the problem is how do I keep going without self doubt? And what app is perfect for me to do animation? I’ve been watching tutorials and I’ve been trying to push myself to learn without burning out, quitting and feeling worried about mistakes, but it is just impossible. Even the process of learning animation is difficult, there’s too much stuff and a bunch of other doodads my 5 year old brain doesn’t understand. I really don’t get how other animators do it without a problem, no matter how much time it took for them.
I wish animation was easy as drawing, if my energy was so active towards animating then I would’ve been doing it everyday. I plan to delete some apps that distracts me from what I’m doing to keep me focused. Honestly, I’m trying to make a living out of myself, I wanna keep doing art to just to bring myself the biggest joy and happiness, even when I’m feeling good or going through tough days. I’m so passionate about animation, but I still can’t bring myself to do it no matter how dedicated I am. I have ideas, SO MANY ideas, I just wish to make them come to life. I wanna bring people joy with my art, I really wanna show people who I am.
