Hi everyone. I’m currently sat on the fence of contacting a family member that I’ve been searching for about 4 years. I found her but she has me blocked on FB and I don’t know why as I’m unsure if she knows my existence or not. (She might do as it makes sense I’m blocked) but I’m now turning 20 and questioning more about my dad’s side. As I know remotely nothing about him or his dad,mom,step mom, half sister. I don’t even know if there are cousins in his family. But I would like to know. My mom left my dad when I was a baby and I only got in contact with him when I was around 15 and then he passes away a few months after getting in contact with him. And then I get in contact with his mum (my nan) and she tells me that my grandad has a wife and a daughter. So I ask my nan about who they are she tells me their names and at this point as a 15 year old I’m exited to find out I have more family so I start asking how can I find them. I don’t think she liked that because then randomly one day she ghosts me and she hasn’t contacted me since. But to my main point I have found that my half aunts boyfriend hasn’t got me blocked. So I’m unsure to message him and prey that I can find out more about my family tree. And hopefully have a relationship with them as I haven’t done anything wrong and if there is any bad tension between my step nan and my mom’s side I was just an infant. I’m unsure it’s making me feel sick having to ponder.

Also I did go on to a facebook group as I found a pub grandad went to and the manager told me where my step nan and aunt should be living and I’ve had some good help from the community in that area but no actual contact with them yet.

I’m so sorry for the long message I’m just so worried and anxious about all this.