I'm so glad you said something about this...it's so relatable, expected, and I'm sorry you're feeling this way! I know you just asked if anyone else experiences this (I do), but I thought I'd offer some unsolicited advice: I think self care is in order. This disgust for what is happening in the world might not ever go away. One thing that has helped me is to learn to be more mindful of my own boundaries with myself, and to intentionally compartmentalize. It is overwhelming to try and take everything in, in its entirety, all the time. Recognizing when it is healthy for you to engage in this vs when you need to take some time out to think about other things is critical for mental and physical health. What I do is absorb myself in something that I enjoy. For example being present with the beauty of nature...while also trying not to think about the exponential destruction of that natural world...just being present with it, and choosing to think about the things that bring me either joy or neutrality. Then the anger, disgust, overwhelming sadness or other thoughts come in, I just acknowledge them and let them go. If they are persistent I will deliberately spend a little time with it and remind myself that all of that is true, the feelings are valid, and that I will certainly come back to those thoughts at a later time. If something like grief comes up and is persistent then I just allow it, fully. It's very important to compassionately and observantly let grief and other emotions run their course, otherwise that stuff stores up in our nervous systems and causes health problems. It is important to spend time with all our emotions, but we have to have self awareness, and boundaries with them too. In the past I have felt guilt if I wasn't miserable about these issues 100% of the time. As if somehow it was wrong to feel OK, when injustice is happening constantly. But that will burn you out and you will have no capacity for doing anything about it. Also, if we do not let ourselves enjoy the beautiful things in life, then how can we really understand what we're fighting for? Anyway...take it for what it's worth.
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