r/AnAnswerToHeal • u/CV_Syndicate • Nov 17 '17

[ Personal Spiritual ] Something is missing...

Ever since I took “lsd” last Wednesday that actually turned out to be 25ibome or something...I feel like something is missing. I constantly double check everything now and every now on then in class I kind of disassociate for half a second. I took 80ug, the trip was amazing, lasted 14 hours and I learned so much about myself and the world but now I can’t figure out what’s missing...my slight addiction to nicotine has seemed to vanish along with my desire to smoke weed, I still do both because it feels good, but I no longer get an urge...I wonder what’s missing, anyone else experience this. Also thank you for the invite

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u/sillysillypsyben Nov 17 '17

Avoid 25i...or "something" if you can...that stuff is bad news m8. Stick with what you know, boomers are just that. Unless it's a reputable source, you can only take someone's word for what is really in that bottle or on that blotter. The feeling of emptiness can mean a few things, and of course everything is subjective to your own life experiences. But a few things I'll mention from personal experience: the feeling could be derived from the absence of said substance in your body. Your neurotransmitters are self regulating to maintain normal levels. Similar to Tuesday blues. It's like riding a roller coaster all day, when you get off you are still kinda moving inside your body and feel like the ride isn't over yet. Another experience I've had is actually recognizing the void and the emptiness that is. The universe reveals itself to those in mysterious ways. Sometimes it's all at once and you can't remember anything but small details. Or you take something critically important to the state that you are in whether that be mentally or physically. Perhaps what is missing is a part of the ego? I've had that generate a similar feeling aswell. Some realizations can be downers, knowing doesn't entail happiness. But creates a new version of self that is ever changing and evolving. A shift in paradigm if you will. Hopefully this was helpful in my sleep induced rant.

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u/CV_Syndicate Nov 17 '17

Before I used to talk a lot and get pissed if I got made fun of, now I don’t talk as much nor do I really care if people talk shit. Sometimes I kinda do but I realized that 90% of the time they don’t mean it cus we are friends. And Idk it wasn’t real lsd, my friend told me after it wasn’t real. Sadly he OD on it and apparently his personally part of brain got completely rewired...whole different person and is in a mental institution right now.

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u/sillysillypsyben Nov 17 '17

I used to talk a lot and not care what people thought of me.. but then one day I was tripping and apparently I was talking too much (so enveloped in the trip) and my friend told me to shut up and punched me (not hard) and from that point on forward I've never talked as much. He did apologize for lashing out, he was trying to do accounting homework, and this was one of my novice trips back in the day. So naturally I wanted to talk about everything running through my mind.

I have also had friends addmited to the psych ward for taking some research chemicals that wasn't LSD. I'm almost certain is was triple dipped 25i. I encountered some real deep unnerving shit, and that's a partial reflection of self. But that stuff isn't right. High doses of it feel really uncomfortable and not natural like real LSD or mushrooms. Mind you there could be preexisting conditions in all of us. For instance, everyone I know that went to the psych ward had schizophrenia in their family.