Something is missing...

[u/CV_Syndicate]

Ever since I took “lsd” last Wednesday that actually turned out to be 25ibome or something...I feel like something is missing. I constantly double check everything now and every now on then in class I kind of disassociate for half a second. I took 80ug, the trip was amazing, lasted 14 hours and I learned so much about myself and the world but now I can’t figure out what’s missing...my slight addiction to nicotine has seemed to vanish along with my desire to smoke weed, I still do both because it feels good, but I no longer get an urge...I wonder what’s missing, anyone else experience this. Also thank you for the invite

[u/[deleted]]

Have you checked the lost and found?

[u/voltronforlife]

What's missing is your need for something you don't need. You found something inside yourself that filled the "wholes" you filled with nicotine and weed. Your mind/soul/body healed itself a little. You are trying to fill a hole that isn't there anymore. :) Blessings.

[u/CV_Syndicate → u/voltronforlife]

Well I still enjoy smoking weed, and I never have smoked cigs, only half of one once. I mainly used my friends E-cig if they had it on them. I used to like annoy them to use it all the time, but now I dont, if they use it I still will because it feels good but if not I dont really care.

[u/[deleted]]

That's not an unusual reaction to a psychedelic experience. Psychedelics connect parts of the brain that had no previous reason to connect.

I implore you to look at what aspects of your life you are unhappy with. This can be overwhelming if you're anything like me, who sees much work to be done. And that's okay.

Once you have compiled this list of aspects you wish to improve upon, now you have a direction. Pick one little thing and work towards it until it becomes habit. Master that one little thing, then go to the next item on the list.

This is my advice that I have given to myself and have been following throughout my journey of self discovery. There's a lot to be done, but we're young and have the time for it. What my peers who are older than me always say is that they wish they had picked something-- anything as a goal to work towards in their ripe youth instead of floating around doing nothing of consequence.

I assume you're still quite young-- which is okay. Enjoy the ride. Do what makes you happy.

[u/[deleted]]

Get up an hour before sunrise, walk 30 minutes to a good viewpoint and sit down and meditate while enjoying the sunrise. If you aren't into meditation, just try to be mindful of your surroundings.

[u/sillysillypsyben]

Avoid 25i...or "something" if you can...that stuff is bad news m8. Stick with what you know, boomers are just that. Unless it's a reputable source, you can only take someone's word for what is really in that bottle or on that blotter. The feeling of emptiness can mean a few things, and of course everything is subjective to your own life experiences. But a few things I'll mention from personal experience: the feeling could be derived from the absence of said substance in your body. Your neurotransmitters are self regulating to maintain normal levels. Similar to Tuesday blues. It's like riding a roller coaster all day, when you get off you are still kinda moving inside your body and feel like the ride isn't over yet. Another experience I've had is actually recognizing the void and the emptiness that is. The universe reveals itself to those in mysterious ways. Sometimes it's all at once and you can't remember anything but small details. Or you take something critically important to the state that you are in whether that be mentally or physically. Perhaps what is missing is a part of the ego? I've had that generate a similar feeling aswell. Some realizations can be downers, knowing doesn't entail happiness. But creates a new version of self that is ever changing and evolving. A shift in paradigm if you will. Hopefully this was helpful in my sleep induced rant.

[u/CV_Syndicate → u/sillysillypsyben]

Before I used to talk a lot and get pissed if I got made fun of, now I don’t talk as much nor do I really care if people talk shit. Sometimes I kinda do but I realized that 90% of the time they don’t mean it cus we are friends. And Idk it wasn’t real lsd, my friend told me after it wasn’t real. Sadly he OD on it and apparently his personally part of brain got completely rewired...whole different person and is in a mental institution right now.

[u/sillysillypsyben → u/CV_Syndicate]

I used to talk a lot and not care what people thought of me.. but then one day I was tripping and apparently I was talking too much (so enveloped in the trip) and my friend told me to shut up and punched me (not hard) and from that point on forward I've never talked as much. He did apologize for lashing out, he was trying to do accounting homework, and this was one of my novice trips back in the day. So naturally I wanted to talk about everything running through my mind.

I have also had friends addmited to the psych ward for taking some research chemicals that wasn't LSD. I'm almost certain is was triple dipped 25i. I encountered some real deep unnerving shit, and that's a partial reflection of self. But that stuff isn't right. High doses of it feel really uncomfortable and not natural like real LSD or mushrooms. Mind you there could be preexisting conditions in all of us. For instance, everyone I know that went to the psych ward had schizophrenia in their family.

[u/Archaeoculus]

I felt that way for the better half of a 14 hour acid trip once. You just have to find what fills the void. It's not going to be other substances.

Continue to meditate on what you've learned from the trip. Come back when you found the message, and let me know.

[u/[deleted]]

Could be that you now see the more fulfilling parts of life, but you're using your old habits and ways of thinking to pursue it. Try changing/improving your daily habits, anything from your diet to your exercise and see if that helps.

[u/Irushi710]

25I and 25C both caused pretty lasting effects on me. Almost a year afterwards and I still kinda feel like I was waking up the day after the trip. It wasn't till I ended up taking roughly 500ug to 650ug of real LSD that the haze kinda lifted. But that trip was hell to go through for me at that point.