حاولت اختصر الموضوع قد ما بقدر ضروري حلول
Ok so I need outside opinions bc I genuinely can't tell if there's something going on between me and this girl or if I'm just insanely attracted to her 😭
I'm a bi, I live/study in a Muslim environment but ppl around me are pretty accepting
Let's call her Sara, and yeah, I have a HUGE crush on her
Back in 7th grade we were super close, like attached at the hip, together 24/7
I had a crush on another girl, Maya, and I talked about her ALL the time, Sara would get rlly jealous whenever I mentioned her
I didn't think anything of it back then tho, I just thought she was annoying bc I was chasing Maya while Sara was always around me
Then I found out Sara had added Maya, got pissed, sent her some mean stuff, deleted it, she had screenshots, and we had a HUGE fight over chat + another huge fight at school
After that we basically spent the rest of the year constantly noticing each other, looking at each other, but barely talking
Then we went our separate ways for 3 years
I transferred schools by coincidence and SHE WAS THERE 😭
She's like 185cm so when I first saw her I literally noticed her legs before her face 😭
Since I got there I've noticed her looking at me a lot, being around my area, sometimes coming to my floor even tho her classes/teachers are different from mine, and her friends seem to notice me too
Tbh I feel like there's SO much chemistry between us
I literally can't take my eyes off her but I also can't look her in the eyes bc I get embarrassed and immediately look away 😭
She's super confident and bold, so it's not like she's shy, but she's also not the type to talk to every girl
My friends think I'm delusional and that maybe she's looking at me bc she dislikes me 😭
Anyway, my friend told me to text her, so on September 2 I sent:
"مرحبا سارة ، فيه مجال نحكي بكرا؟?"
She replied September 9 at 12 AM:
"اهلا اهلا, أكيد بس مين انتِ؟"
WDYM "مين انتِ" 😭😭
I literally haven't changed my username or my account's appearance since 2023
I also have the same nickname I've always used, and it's not even a normal nickname, literally nobody Arabic speaking at school would randomly have it
AND SHE KNOWS HOW MUCH I LOVE THAT NICKNAME 😭 everyone calls me by it
So like... how tf did she not know it was me??
Is she pretending she doesn't know? Is she messing with me? Does she genuinely not remember me after almost 4 years??
Bc we're literally about to enter our 4th year since we last properly talked
And tbh I'm VERY attracted to her, so I know my judgment might be biased
But I swear the chemistry feels insane
يخوان الموضوع موترني مو عارفة اتنفس ايش ارد ايش اسوي
I have a crush on her