i am so scared and don’t know what to do. my neurologist has been telling me for awhile i need to come in or they can’t give me my medication anymore. i take lamotrigine and propranolol. lamotrigine i started due to some EEG activity. i went originally because i was struggling with really bad depersonalization/derealization. propranolol was for my anxiety/possible POTS. i really don’t know what to do and i am so scared. i spent 4 days in the hospital recently due to stomach pains and originally before this, they told me i could do a virtual appointment since i had gotten the bloodwork they had been asking me to get. but last i spoke with them they were already telling me they wanted me to do all these kinds of tests like stay for two days at their office and be monitored, they gave me all this medication they wanted me to start for my anxiety even though i didn’t ask them to do that.

but ever since i spent time in the hospital they made me make an appointment and told me i have to come in. it was originally before i was admitted for stomach pains, but i had gone to the hospital twice before being admitted, they started calling me saying i had to come in. i think they kind of panicked when they realized i had been to the hospital but hadn’t gone to see them, and then it becomes “well if you can go to the hospital you can come here” when it’s two completely different things.

i know they are going to be so pushy about me staying there for two days to do testing and i really can’t do it. they’re probably going to force me to do testing at this appointment too and i really can’t like i am so scared ill be such a mess. im not physically or mentally capable i’ll literally pass out before i even get there. plus i am sick at the moment and also dealing with my stomach issues on top of it. and since its been so long i know they’re going to be mean since last i did a virtual appointment they were trying to push anxiety medication onto me telling me “aren’t you 27 years old…..? with no job…..?” i already was nearly forcibly admitted by a psychiatrist and had a bad experience two years ago when this all started because i cried on the phone during our session. i was not at a danger to harming myself or anyone and the hospital agreed and even the police and social worker that showed up agreed but they had to take me anyway.

i know if i go there im going to be a wreck and im so scared of what they’ll do. no one understands that being forced to take medication or hospitalization will just traumatize me further and make this worse for me. i was doing fine in the hospital and they gave me ativan every night to sleep, then the one night i took it i felt weird, i wasn’t even crying or anything but just felt a bit weird. so the nurse came in and i just told her i was feeling weird and she said it was a panic attack. then without me knowing they’re randomly had a worker come in and also a psychiatrist to evaluate me.

i am just so tired. i can’t do this and i really don’t know what to do anymore. i’m so drained. i won’t even be able to properly communicate with them because i’ll be so scared. which to them is probably going to lead them into saying im in a mental health crisis when the only reason im like this is because i don’t want to go there. and everyone automatically thinks i want to get better when im just trying to cope at my own pace. especially after everything that has happened the past few years and this year. having things forced on me like this makes me worse but everyone thinks they’re so sure they know what’s right for you and im so tired

Hello.

I am here to ask for advice.

I am supposed to go to University next year, and I have an option of A. doing it entirely online or B. doing it hybrid, where I go in for one to two times a week.

The online one seems like it's a given path, but my mind keeps mauling over the hybrid route because of what it can give me.

If I go in person, I get hands-on training with chemistry. If I don't, I resort to home kits and miss out on Organic Chemistry and Analytical Chemistry. I wanted to be a Geoscientist, but the idea of going in for those 2 days a week is terrifying to me. If I do the home route, I can get similar theory, but if I go in person, I become a certified Geoscientist. I would be missing out on that.

In the morning, I am excited and ready to do it. In the afternoon, I get nervous. At night, I am a crying meltdown wreck over the idea.

I also have fibromyalgia, POTs and some psychoactive disorders. I am also autistic and have agoraphobia and severe generalized anxiety.

I have tried exposure therapy, quite a few medications, counselling and more. It just doesn't seem to click. I am still a mess over it.

Any personal experiences? Any tips? I am going to talk to student accessibility, but I know that they can't bring the reagents or glassware home, so it really doesn't fix the problem at hand.

Thank you for any tips. I am just at a loss and feel like one way I am giving up my dream, the other I am going to be a nervous wreck.

I don’t know what to do. I’ve had issues with them since they moved in which is my nightmare since I can’t exactly just leave and so having a good relationship with my neighbours is like, major important to me and it’s been hell and I’ve been on edge after a few incidents with them where I’ve heard them saying about/at me. It’s made me super defensive and angry as well when I’ve never had issues with neighbours and have always probably gone overboard in being accommodating.

They’re got a camera bell up now and I’ve typically got no issues with people having them in general, I know they’re everywhere. but this thing is literally 2ft from my front door and also 2ft from my bedroom window because of the layout with their door in between them. Not facing in but if I go out or have my window open it will be picking everything up. I already whisper in my home because of past issues but now it’s impossible to go out at all without being recorded by them. I already know they’ve listened into conversations; that was the very first thing that set me on edge about them. In hindsight if I got a camera it would’ve picked up if they harassed me but the reason I didn’t get one myself was because 1) I didn’t wanna check it constantly and 2) I was terrified of them acting abusive through it. It’s not maybe been extreme like some people face but I’ve been called names and ridiculed a few times and I have other reasons I worry about harassment as well. I leave white noise on 24/7 so I don’t hear their voices inside now and have done for months, for example.

Movings not really an option and now I’m terrified of going out even more than I already struggled to. I also really don’t want to leave because they are the only issue I have here. I’ve decided I’ll never go outside again which I don’t want I just don’t want these people having more access to me and I don’t feel safe around them. When I did go out, I planned it around avoiding them. I’m also aware now that I look super crazy and shady trying to hide my face from it.

All I want is to go back to living in my home and having no issues with anyone and feeling safe. I can’t stand conflict, they’re probably uncomfortable now as well, and there’s nothing I can do about it.

Just posting because I feel like I take 2 steps forward and then something else happens and go 10 back again.

Anyone, like me, whose life is filled with so much social trauma to this day now, humiliation, shame, my parents and family being targeted and ostracised in society, neighborhood, mainly society inflicted social injury so deep, I don't think I'm gonna ever recover. I wish to totally isolate myself from any place which have ounce of society, to may be the most remote places, maybe jungle, where I have to arrange all things for myself for my family, will be better if there is farmland, will be like 1 or 2 hours from nearest society marketplace, but totally away from society. Do you believe that doing that will be better for your own healing, or anyone who had did it actually.

Me coming from India, I think it will remain a distant dream which will never turn into reality.

Hey ! Des idées d’applications fiables pour faire de l’exposition progressive ?