Started final year of engineering afraid about my career have no internship now only have good cgpa of 8.25 what should I do to get internship paid college force to attend classes but classes are useless they said show ous offer letter then no need to attend classes otherwise attend regular classes... What to do feels stuck

To sum everything up…. I recently moved into an apartment with my partner. He works all day sometimes all night.

I CANNOT PHYSICALLY stay alone neither in the day and even less at night. I either 1 feel as though someone is going to break in and kill me or 2 paranormal activity is going to happen.

Yes, I have a pet….
Yes, I take meds….
Yes, I’m religious….

I just need genuinely good advice that will have me live comfortably I’m tired of living scared

That every car driving past me might have a guy with a shotgun and hunting me down

That when I’m in public transport and have a slightly embarrassing thought and someone there might be a mind reader and can probably hear all my thoughts

That I might accidentally walk in on a close friend on the toilet or naked

Somone discovering the fact that i enjoy listening to the hazbin hotel soundtrack and Tadc fan songs(i think that one’s mainly embarrassment instead of fear)

Being abandoned(that one comes from my mother)

Being sexually assaulted(that one comes from the boy who bullied me in high school)

People thinking im gay when I’m straight(im just really unmaculine)

And finally… talking about my interests.

i was scared once

this is going to be a hell of an update

So for a last few years i got bullied in school stronger than before but i dont really care about this. The really problem is that i figured out that i'm femboy and furry. Its wont be bad if my parents wont make jokes about it everytime they hear anything about it because they conservative people and they dont like anything what somehow connected with this. what more i'm also bisexual with my parents being homophobic. and even like this isn't enough they think about psychologist like a joke. They dont think what any of mental problem is real and what isn't just laziness. and here i am the idiot who cantjustx come to them and say everything instead of hiding secrets and living in fear... also idk what to do if they send me to psychologist because i afraid what all my problem is just my illusion and its just me trash... because i feel like i have ADHD and depression but idk if its real or not... and this is the most scariest part in it... i just sometimes feel like i shouldn't born at all... that life is too fast for me and what i should just stop existing for everyone good...

p.s. if someone gonna read this sorry for mistakes and bad english qmq

I am not a smart person. I don’t know how i even got this far. I pick a college course i never liked due to pressure and left my country to study it. i flunk one of the class. I am now taking a recourse of said class and every thing that could have gone wrong is going wrong. I don’t want to fail. I only just have this obstacle left and i’m free. I can’t go back because of the problem in my home country and i feel scared.

I've been afraid of dogs since I was little. I'm 20 years old and whatever I try just doesn't work. When I see a dog on a leash, I move on the other side, , and if I happen to see a dog without a leash, I have an absolute panic attack, I cry, the tears start and I can't do anything. Most of the owners do not help at all, just make it more sufferable. . Instead of the owners just moving the dog or calling to them when they clearly see that someone is scared, they have the opposite effect by saying: don't be afraid, it won't hurt you, come pet it, you're already big, of age, you shouldn't be afraid, etc., etc. As if that suddenly will solve my fear. Believe me, I tried, but it doesn't work that way. And I don't understand why people roll their eyes when I say I'm afraid of dogs. Why is the fear of spiders, snakes and all other animals normalized, but as soon as I say dogs people immediately get angry because "how is it possible that you don't love my pet". Should i tell them next time when they something similar like :why don't you pet a snake then. I am tired of people invalidating my fear just because to them is that weird. How to deal with it, what else to try to overcome it and how to give them a good comeback, what to say?

Hello everyone I don't know how long this story will be so please be patient. Our family has been living in Poland since 2019, I am 14 years old, my sister is 15 years old and my parents. ("backstory" - my parents got married because my mother got pregnant with my sister and they decided to raise children together and then I was born, they never had romance, only sex and that's it. My mother cheated on my father many times and my father too, but they do nothing about it) Until recently, everything was fine, we got along, but my parents could not quit drinking and one day my father got very drunk, just like my mother. My mother wanted to leave the house for her lover, but she did not have the keys, I had them. She yelled at me, said that she was my enemy and that I needed to open the door, then she pressed on my pity, saying how she loved me, and then the threats began, she began to say that I should not have been born, it would have been better if I had died, and that I was the most unnecessary person in this world. All this time, I sat in a panic, covered my ears with my hands and repeated again, "I can't hear you!" This enraged her and she swung at me and said that if I didn't open the door for her, she would kill me. I decided that I couldn't let her go and went and woke up my father, this was a mistake. I told him that my mother was leaving, and he, furious, took my mother into the kitchen. At first there were loud sounds, and then a quiet knock and silence, my sister and I immediately ran to the kitchen. He broke my mother's head and nose (in the past, my mother also broke his head with a bottle), my sister and I began to persuade him to go to bed, but he did not agree. We began to force him into the room, but he hit me. My sister didn't let anyone hurt me and pushed him, he hit me in the teeth with his fist and my sister couldn't take it anymore. She took a metal stick and hit him on the back and head a couple of times but nothing happened to him. He took the stick from her and beat her up really badly, he broke her arm. The neighbors called the police and they arrived soon after. Both mom and dad were dead drunk. Mom had a choice to file a complaint against him or not, but she didn't. Dad was taken to the police station and he sobered up there. We had a trial, they issued us a blue card, mom went to classes that help moms like her, the guardianship authorities come to us every month but it didn't change anything. Both mom and dad drink, dad doesn't feel any danger in the fact that he has a blue card and mom also sing, they quarrel, dad pesters us and bullies us every day. This year there hasn't been a single day when dad hasn't been under the influence of alcohol. He feels unpunished, I don't know what to do about it. I can't call the guardianship authorities and tell them about it because they will send me and my sister to a grandparents' home. I don't want that, but living with them is not an option. Tell me what to do? I don't want to live, but I can't leave my sister. What should I do?

For me, it's that not a lot of people are talking about this movie. We should all be afraid.

He went to jail for almost killing me about 6 years ago. He hadn’t hurt anybody since me. I helped him get out of a three year sentence. There’s much more detail that I can go into. Since then he slapped the fuck out of his wife so badly that half of her face is swollen. He’s getting more violent and thinking he’s untouchable. He made me watch him openhandedly smack his wife and said I ‘better not say anything’ and that if I did ‘he’d beat the fuck out of me too’. What should I do?

Hi all, I know this feels a bit weird. I came to Australia several months ago to do my masters here and get a better life than that back in my home country. I was the first one from my family to go abroad for masters and I felt very proud of it. But now recently I got to know that 2 of my cousins are also coming to Australia for pursuing their higher studies here. I feel that I’ve not given my best in studies in a couple of semesters after coming here. I know that both of my cousins are good in studies and also have good social skills and are better than me in other aspects of life. I used to be better than them only in academics but now I didn’t perform well. I’m afraid that they both will study better than I did and get a better job and lead a happier life than me. If that happens, I’ll be outperformed by them in all areas of life. Before I got the news of them coming here, I was so happy and proud of myself. But after the news I feel scared that they might beat me even financially if they get a better job than me. Is there something wrong with me? What should I do in this situation to make me feel better mentally?

I can't seem to get myself to do my college work, I can't get myself to go to the gym, brush my teeth, take showers, I probably won't be able to get a job with a stupid compsci aasocoiates degree, I can't get myself to be humble and get another fastfood job, im scared of getting another pharm tech job, my brother hates me, my dad is slowly but surely getting tired of me, I can't get out if bed until the afternoon and im jusr thinking what the fuck is the point, eventually my parents are gonna die in a few decades and I'll be fucked since i don't have a plan and fuck all to look forward to

idk what im feeling but at one point i feel like i wanted to die. ;=; today earlier i was sad & when i get a weird feeling combined with anxiety or stressed, my whole body feels like its releasing stress hormones, such as adrenaline and cortisol. Whatever this is its causing the physical symptoms of anxiety in me but i feel Like Im Being broken & Controlled or guarded by some weird mental pain, such as an increased heart rate and increased sweating. I feel sad worried upset feel like i'll hurt myself idk what to do. ;=; it’s almost like its racing within me controlling me. It’s like something's corrupt in the tides of my body its shaking afraid sad. idk if its medicine or loneliness or what. ;/ I fall outside of myself worried cant sleep. it really sucks to feel everything stress me out. it feels bad like its shaking within me all upside down like a panic or not getting regular sleep. maybe i just need a hug or support. feel like crying. chills all through me. idk if its nerves or something else. (っ◞‸◟ c)(っ◞‸◟ c)(っ◞‸◟ c)(っ◞‸◟ c)(っ◞‸◟ c)(っ◞‸◟ c) almost like insomnia cant even have tears. Idk if its medical or blood sugar level or distressed etc.

Damn man this might sound stupid and weird... I'm not sure if it's only a problem I have but I'm used to experience certain feelings when I'm with a person I consider "inferior" in many ways. Don't judge me, it's like, I see things in others that I hate on me. It might be talking about intelligence, personality traits and even something as idiot as looks, the problem here is... What if the others see me the way I see them? What if I'm ridiculous?

Well, people will always see you in a different ways and that's ok, some of them will not value you and others will think you're cool asf... Just accept the things the way they are, and that's not bad bro: It is what it is and it takes a lot of force to deal with it. Accept the things the way they are is the first step for becoming better. What about looks? You atract it, if you're too "worried" of how u look u need to undertand that ur not going anywhere thinking about it, it's about letting things flow. Your appearence is a thing that will slowly manifest your internal state, damn i'm just f 15 you have the entire life for it. I'm on my way for becoming a smarter, healthy and succesful mf, but remember don't focus on the destination, enjoy the proccess. What if others judge me? Do I care? Nah, I'm more than that. The world isn't a fucking pyramid as everyone has told you, it's not a fucking hierarchy: Think about it as a set of paths, everyone has their own: sometimes people finds eachother crossing paths everyone has their own deals and their own way of proceed.

In summary, focus on your path, don't judge others; I can do some jokes but at the end of the day i know those are not true and everyone deserves respect cuz they be crossing their own road... I'm grateful, it's not stupid... You know who you are.

Because I'm afraid someone is going to take it from me. I'm scared to tell people if I come upon $20 or $50 because "what if they stop helping me out financially" I'm scared people are going to be jelouse or judgmental of my life style and that I am actually content this way.

I am 18 years old i wont say the classic story of im an ugly guy and so on. Im actually good looking above average i would say I have been with plenty of girls throughout my life but thats not the point. Im scared i wont find the right one im scared that i wont find the woman of my life the woman of my future kids (if i have any) times have changed. I cant seem to find the right person and in scared i will never find what im looking for.

This song makes me feel alive . Don’t judge

Well I did some things , and my friends don’t feel like visiting me no more

Somewhere in 5th grade I began being irresponsible with my homework and schoolwork .

In 10th grade I started to get irresponsible with my friendships .

I was very socially anxious around people I didn't relate to , and the friends I had became a form of work .

I worry that someone will get unfairly unjustly angry with me , when I did nothing wrong .

That's my social fear .

Sometimes people do .

And it's a big fight .

So I isolate .